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hey guys been a while I think it's been so long since I've updated it that nobodies checked it anymore. oh well. Been a rough coulple of weeks. My grand father's health was just getting worse and worse until he finally passed away friday. I had to go to the funeral Yesturday, it was pretty rough I'm really glad I didn't have to go alone though. Odd you will never know how much you mean to me. I think the worst part about things like that is seeing your family and friends you thought were made out of iron wills break down and cry. Me and my mom have had our moments. I lost my father and now she's lost her father. It's not a similarity we enjoy but one that I think it bringing us closer together.
We went back up to the cemetary today to check on the flowers cause it was so windy. Some of them were blown over so we had to put them in the ground a little deeper. Alot of the flowers we took back to my grandmothers. She's doin alot better than I thought she would be. We all knew this was gona happen eventually but it didn't make it any easier.
While we were at the cemetary I went and cleaned off my dad's grave marker. Mom had some flowers(fake) we'd bought a while back but never got out there so we put them up too. After we left I think I was a little out of it trying to distance myself or something because after we got back mom asked me to buckle the kid's carseat back in the car. We'd had to take it out so we could all go in one car, but anyway it took me like half an hour sitting out there in the cold to get that damn thing back in the car. I about wanted to scream. I've already had my crying fit at the funeral, so maybe that was an axiety attack creepin up on me or something.
I think it was standin up in the cemetary after I'd cleaned the marker and realizin that there are very few people I truly love in this world and too many of them are leaving me...
I was at nana's for a little whlile then odd came by and picked me up. Hangin out with her always seems to cheer me up some how. I don't know maybe it's your personality odd I just can't be depressed around you.
We went back up to the cemetary today to check on the flowers cause it was so windy. Some of them were blown over so we had to put them in the ground a little deeper. Alot of the flowers we took back to my grandmothers. She's doin alot better than I thought she would be. We all knew this was gona happen eventually but it didn't make it any easier.
While we were at the cemetary I went and cleaned off my dad's grave marker. Mom had some flowers(fake) we'd bought a while back but never got out there so we put them up too. After we left I think I was a little out of it trying to distance myself or something because after we got back mom asked me to buckle the kid's carseat back in the car. We'd had to take it out so we could all go in one car, but anyway it took me like half an hour sitting out there in the cold to get that damn thing back in the car. I about wanted to scream. I've already had my crying fit at the funeral, so maybe that was an axiety attack creepin up on me or something.
I think it was standin up in the cemetary after I'd cleaned the marker and realizin that there are very few people I truly love in this world and too many of them are leaving me...
I was at nana's for a little whlile then odd came by and picked me up. Hangin out with her always seems to cheer me up some how. I don't know maybe it's your personality odd I just can't be depressed around you.