explanation
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I woke up at 6 am instead of 6:45 to get ready for work (for unknown reasons, and with a benadryl hangover no less (complete with the spins)), so I may as well explain my last entry.
But first a question: when did VH1 start playing more rap/hip-hop than MTV? And why so early in the morning?
Anyway.
I withdrew from UNH for a lot of reasons. I've known that I wasn't going to do well with the four-year college thing from when I began (actually before then, which is why I chose a state school instead of something "better"). Anyone that went to high school with me knows that I've never been a great student, and I can only focus on something if I actually care about it. I tried changing my major a couple of times to see if it would help and it did for about a month here and there but then I'd lose motivation again. It was the fact that I had to take ridiculous gen. eds and and knowing that I had a lot of time left... only to get a major in art... which I would never use. I'm an artist whether I major in it or not, I don't need a degree behind me for that.
Why now?
Because I finally got up the courage to deal with the fact that I would majorly be disappointing my parents. And I did disappoint them. But they'll live.
In January I'll (most likely) be going to a tech school nearby and getting an Associate's in Nursing... i.e. something useful that I'll actually get a job with and that I've always been interested in anyway.
So there you go. I'm not throwing my life away, I'm actually drastically improving it. I'm staying in the area, because I could never leave my friends which are my family these days.
I am entirely certain that it's the best decision I have ever made. I just wish I'd done it sooner.
As far as the boy situation goes... well you just have to look at my facebook if you really want to know who that is. Yes, we got back together. And if you want to throw any cynical shit at me for it, then go fuck yourself. I'm happy.
Now off to work.
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I woke up at 6 am instead of 6:45 to get ready for work (for unknown reasons, and with a benadryl hangover no less (complete with the spins)), so I may as well explain my last entry.
But first a question: when did VH1 start playing more rap/hip-hop than MTV? And why so early in the morning?
Anyway.
I withdrew from UNH for a lot of reasons. I've known that I wasn't going to do well with the four-year college thing from when I began (actually before then, which is why I chose a state school instead of something "better"). Anyone that went to high school with me knows that I've never been a great student, and I can only focus on something if I actually care about it. I tried changing my major a couple of times to see if it would help and it did for about a month here and there but then I'd lose motivation again. It was the fact that I had to take ridiculous gen. eds and and knowing that I had a lot of time left... only to get a major in art... which I would never use. I'm an artist whether I major in it or not, I don't need a degree behind me for that.
Why now?
Because I finally got up the courage to deal with the fact that I would majorly be disappointing my parents. And I did disappoint them. But they'll live.
In January I'll (most likely) be going to a tech school nearby and getting an Associate's in Nursing... i.e. something useful that I'll actually get a job with and that I've always been interested in anyway.
So there you go. I'm not throwing my life away, I'm actually drastically improving it. I'm staying in the area, because I could never leave my friends which are my family these days.
I am entirely certain that it's the best decision I have ever made. I just wish I'd done it sooner.
As far as the boy situation goes... well you just have to look at my facebook if you really want to know who that is. Yes, we got back together. And if you want to throw any cynical shit at me for it, then go fuck yourself. I'm happy.
Now off to work.
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