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last night was...... ireally dont know what to say.
so iwent to the ap house prepared.
big bottle of yellow tail.
many sedatives.
many many sedatives i knew i was gonna need them.
i seen mark....... and....... he looked sooooooo good...like nothing happened..
he's blind now....but still his eyes were still so beutiful................
i was sooooooo happy but at the same .... i felt guilty........ wishing i could take it from him.
WE TAKE SIGHT FOR GRANTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i broke 2 of my fingers i punched a brick wall as hard as i could....it split my knucles open..
i chugged my bottle and ate morexanax....
i.......................
me bruce loui ober my bro and a bunch of other people went back to my house...
drank and ate more....
then at like 4 for some reason i decided to eat the mushrooms i had.......
I WAS TRYING FO FIND MEANING AND PEACE AND ......I DID..
in sollitude i found somethinmgs i needed(not possesions but somethin more)
this sinuos path ive been lead down.........
maybe will come to its end..
so iwent to the ap house prepared.
big bottle of yellow tail.
many sedatives.
many many sedatives i knew i was gonna need them.
i seen mark....... and....... he looked sooooooo good...like nothing happened..
he's blind now....but still his eyes were still so beutiful................
i was sooooooo happy but at the same .... i felt guilty........ wishing i could take it from him.
WE TAKE SIGHT FOR GRANTED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i broke 2 of my fingers i punched a brick wall as hard as i could....it split my knucles open..
i chugged my bottle and ate morexanax....
i.......................
me bruce loui ober my bro and a bunch of other people went back to my house...
drank and ate more....
then at like 4 for some reason i decided to eat the mushrooms i had.......
I WAS TRYING FO FIND MEANING AND PEACE AND ......I DID..
in sollitude i found somethinmgs i needed(not possesions but somethin more)
this sinuos path ive been lead down.........
maybe will come to its end..