verdicts of the week
So the official verdicts of the past fucked up week is that ...
1) I'm no longer doing things for someone else ... I'm doing things for ME, no more trying to make everyone else around me happy. I can give this advice but have a hard time doing it myself. In the end, I AM THE ONE WHO MATTERS. I don't like feeling like I have.
2) Guys my age & a couple years older ... suck. I should start dating someone like 25-28 cuz sorry boys, but you just don't cut it. All that matters in their little worlds is when can they drink the next beer & when is the next time they can fuck. Yup. that basically sums that up nicely.
3) I need my own place. I need a roommate, cuz I don't want to live alone. BUT I guess I need to figure out this whole GROWN UP REAL job thing 1st before I decide where I'm going to live. My grandma was right... maybe I do need to just PICK UP and get the fuck outta this place.
So onto the next fucked up situation I've got myself into with a certain boy ... I don't know if I like where it is going. When it all started I did, considering the circumstances but now .... it's not changing and I'm not liking it very well, but its not serious AT ALL and not right to have the "we need to fix this" conversation. So now I'm left to decided whether to end it here & now and deal with the ackwardnes or wait a LITTLE BIT longer & see if things change.
I hate boys.
They should all be hit by buses.
...i.just.want.to.be.happy...
so now ... all that matters is me.
I deserve to be happier, so why not MAKE myself happier??
and p.s. ... the something to smile about comment in the last post, well had to do with that certain boy, so i guess i wasn't as right on as i thought i was.
1) I'm no longer doing things for someone else ... I'm doing things for ME, no more trying to make everyone else around me happy. I can give this advice but have a hard time doing it myself. In the end, I AM THE ONE WHO MATTERS. I don't like feeling like I have.
2) Guys my age & a couple years older ... suck. I should start dating someone like 25-28 cuz sorry boys, but you just don't cut it. All that matters in their little worlds is when can they drink the next beer & when is the next time they can fuck. Yup. that basically sums that up nicely.
3) I need my own place. I need a roommate, cuz I don't want to live alone. BUT I guess I need to figure out this whole GROWN UP REAL job thing 1st before I decide where I'm going to live. My grandma was right... maybe I do need to just PICK UP and get the fuck outta this place.
So onto the next fucked up situation I've got myself into with a certain boy ... I don't know if I like where it is going. When it all started I did, considering the circumstances but now .... it's not changing and I'm not liking it very well, but its not serious AT ALL and not right to have the "we need to fix this" conversation. So now I'm left to decided whether to end it here & now and deal with the ackwardnes or wait a LITTLE BIT longer & see if things change.
I hate boys.
They should all be hit by buses.
...i.just.want.to.be.happy...
so now ... all that matters is me.
I deserve to be happier, so why not MAKE myself happier??
and p.s. ... the something to smile about comment in the last post, well had to do with that certain boy, so i guess i wasn't as right on as i thought i was.