almost deleted this

[scarlitrose]

been a long long time
i thought about printing my livejournal out but i dont know if i really want to remember some of the stuff i have wrote about in the past
could be sad to look at
remember all the crazy times of my past
and failed attempts at relationships

not that it has changed i am still failing at that ha prob always will

another guy told me he felt like i didnt care. i have heard it quite a few times
noon felt that way
i just have issues with commitment and opening up about my feelings i guess
i just dont wanna be hurt i guess so i act like i dont care when i really do

meh enough

i went away to bermuda
was amazing sad to be home and back to work
i been in a funk since i got home
cant seem to kick it
i am just not happy............with anything or anyone

i just want to wake up smiling one day this week
hasnt happened yet