3 am is most tragic

[scarletxbraids]

just sort of waiting for something else to happen
this life is bitter, bitter,
biting

when i was 17 i didnt have this awareness
i wasted all my time doing i dont know what
the milestones in my life are the ones i made myself remember
pinched my cheeks until it hurt,
said, don't forget
11 when i did it, but
after 11, the illusion slipped
seems i dont make the milestones after all
since then i can only mark them

look at this, mots constipation
i am turning into a stone the older i get