..Find yourself up against another brick fall..
Bored. Totally Bored.
Im sick of this uneventful existance, of spending my days reading books, downloading and watching TV or anime, wasting my time until i have a shift at work.
I need something to do..some place to head for, I feel like Rose....no qualifications..a shit job..no future but unlike her its highly unlikely the Tardis will be waiting for me tomorrow, not unless my meds run out.
I need to be out there doing something, anything worthwhile to fill the time. Im stuck in a rut and its slowly draining away my soul.
Not going out, not spending my time at the pub drinking myself into stupidity, not going out at night only to find myself hanging round with idiots....i stopped that for a reason - I wanted better from life..to wake up every morning and say that im happy and living my life rather than wasting it.
I don't even know what to do or how to start, do i get qualifications? if so what in!? I know my mind...i can love something and decide its what i want to do and then in a blink i find myself wishing for something else and straying. I want a job that I love..a career, something that get me out there! not fame and fortune but to be noticed, for people to know who i am,
Im held tight in time not moving with no clue how to get moving again.
And to think 4 hours ago i was bouncy and happy. I hate this! it always happens when i get into people...actors, tv shows, films...i read up on people and their lives even if they arn't huge in the world...their lives seem so happy.
4 months in and I havn't achived anything...if anything i've got worse to the point of making myself ill. This is no way to continue
AAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im sick of this uneventful existance, of spending my days reading books, downloading and watching TV or anime, wasting my time until i have a shift at work.
I need something to do..some place to head for, I feel like Rose....no qualifications..a shit job..no future but unlike her its highly unlikely the Tardis will be waiting for me tomorrow, not unless my meds run out.
I need to be out there doing something, anything worthwhile to fill the time. Im stuck in a rut and its slowly draining away my soul.
Not going out, not spending my time at the pub drinking myself into stupidity, not going out at night only to find myself hanging round with idiots....i stopped that for a reason - I wanted better from life..to wake up every morning and say that im happy and living my life rather than wasting it.
I don't even know what to do or how to start, do i get qualifications? if so what in!? I know my mind...i can love something and decide its what i want to do and then in a blink i find myself wishing for something else and straying. I want a job that I love..a career, something that get me out there! not fame and fortune but to be noticed, for people to know who i am,
Im held tight in time not moving with no clue how to get moving again.
And to think 4 hours ago i was bouncy and happy. I hate this! it always happens when i get into people...actors, tv shows, films...i read up on people and their lives even if they arn't huge in the world...their lives seem so happy.
4 months in and I havn't achived anything...if anything i've got worse to the point of making myself ill. This is no way to continue
AAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!