Nov 30, 2005 23:43
Sheesh. As soon as I walk in the door I get hit with, "So how much are you spending?" First of all, I have a paycheck. And starting next pay cycle, I'm going to have a much heftier and much more predictable paycheck. Second, I may go out nearly every night, but that doesn't equate to spending a lot every night. Yes, bills add up. No, I don't drop cash every single time. Third, it's CHRISTMAS time. I just dropped $100+ for your gift alone. Yes, this billing cycle is going to hurt; it hurts every time. Knowing what season it is, do you really think I spend THAT much when I go out when I know I need it for other things like gifts? Yet my bank statement goes up every year? So back off.
Obligatory birthdy shout out to 23 year old Matt. Here's to the one month you and I are only one year apart. You bastard. *raises glass to what could have been*
On a much warmer note, my former boss called today to congratulate me on being offically full time. He called. I've seen him a couple times since he left and he always said he would call... not that I believed him*, hehe, but he did! I ADORE him. He's the type that made me feel he was WITH us, especially through all the bad. Even when I felt like hanging myself, he'd say something or give me a look and it was like a presure release and yeah, we would make it through. Drive on. He was someone I was willing to kill myself to get the job done for (which is essentially what it felt like during Sept and Oct). And when he left I was broken hearted because I was losing a comrade. But he called, and I'm all warm and fuzzy.
My ongoings about certain guys are often mistaken for me liking him in "that way". No. When I go on and on it's because I think the dude's a really great person. And I love great people. I'm surrounded by them. I don't have to be attracted to them to think they're great and love them. And when I love, I like to share and talk and go on about it. It's extremely irksome when people undermine that by limiting what I'm trying to say to "you want him." I can adore a dude without wanting to bang him. Hell that's most people. Otherwise I'd be having much more sex, haha.
* I am not one to have a lot of faith in people... I should be from Missouri - I'm a strong believer in "show me." Talk is talk, and it's common for it to be empty. So while my boss said he'd call, since he hadn't (and it'd been over a month), I really didn't think he was going to. I hoped for the best, expected nothing, and got a pleasant warm and fuzzy surprise. And it also goes to show me that hey, this person follows up on his word. Here's a person who earned my confidence.