Depression
But only slight. I have not heard form boyfriend in two days. I am not allowed on the floor that he lives on, and he has not turned his cell phone on since Saturday, I don't think. I have left him messages, I don't know if he's recieved them, I even had a message delievered to his door, and still no sign of life from him. This isn't like him, I am beggining to really worry that something is truly wrong. Our one year anniversay is just around the corner, and I fear it may be a very sour turn. I love him with all that it is in me, I don't know what to do. He has to come out eventually, his navy duties will force him, but does it really have to come down to that? Why can't he just call me? He may be going through some depression himself, he has been bummed out about his lack of accomplishment in his life, but I know in my heart he can do great things if he just forgives himself for not doiing well in high school and not finishing college. His parents I think may be constricting him, he feels they are controlling (I believe it). I am at my wits end. I am hurt and angry at being shunned, but I also want to help and love him and let him know everything would be okay if he just would show his face. I'm angry, but I love him endlessly, and I have given so much of myself to him, my heart cannot convince me that his behavior should not be forgiven. We have been through too much. But I hope he realizes how much he is killing me.