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this is my first LJ post in ages. and i'm not even sure what to say other than that i am confused and i'm not really sure what i'm confused about. i'm sitting in my room eating macaroons drinking grapefruit juice and debating on taking a shower. everyone on my floor is out. they either went home or they are out partying. being 18 you're supposed to be out partying on a friday night right? is it odd that i have no desire for this completely normal teen interaction? is it odd that i would much rather be sitting in my room thinking? when is it that you are supposed to grow up? is growing up too fast bad for you? did i grow up too fast? is it possible that at the tender age of 18 i have alread outgrown this stage where you slowly become an adult? these are a few of the questions that have been plagueing my mind since i got here. is change good? when is it ok to do what makes you happy, and when do you have to let things happen instead of making them happen? is life just sitting back and taking things as they come? i'm listening to 3 guys argue about spilt liquor. guy one is pissed because he only has one shot left. it makes me laugh that this boys only concern is that he isn't off his face drunk, he is only slightly intoxicated. ugh...things are good. i'm not trying to say that i am not happy. and yet i don't think i quite am either. is it ok to simly be content with how things are? so many questions that i don't have answered. anyways.my mind is mad up. i think i will have a shower.