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i did a bad thing just now. i went and read a bunch of old posts on my old livejournal. not a good idea. i get that everyone is all grown up now and things are so different, but i really miss it...god i do. haha...and i read the post that said "he smile makes me weak in the knees" and can't for the life of me figure out who it was. well i have a suspicion but i'm still unsure. anyways...i seemed to have alot more to worry about back then. between the partying and working i was busy busy busy. i miss the old days alot. i miss hanging out with feurd and brendan thats for sure. i miss hanging out with everyone. i wanna revert back to my old self. when the hell did i change so much. when did i become such pessimist? i used to be filled with so much hope and i miss that. i shoudln't have looked at them. the past is in the past i guess. theres no changing it now. for some reason i feel like i'm on a path of destruction. i mean well though, i really do..please forgive me..everyone... i need to go to bed..