grrrr sigh
bad things:
john didnt call again. too distracted at his friends house. figures. Im really tired of this.
sandra invited me to maine with a bunch of people which sounds like so much fun. i probably have to go to cape cod to stay in my grandparents oversized condo with my cousins who I dont talk to instead.
But let me update my life because some good things happened.
I dont think I talked about six flags yet. John planned it. It was very fun. We went on lots of roller coasters and such and it was a good time. Then Amanda and Kristen and maybe Erin planned a picnic which was fun, but quite dark because it was like 9 at night in the middle of the woods. but cool. It was very thoughtful.
Erin had a very fun birthday too. We saw Sheer Madness and stayed at a hotel and it was a good time. We went swimming in the pool and walked around coply a bit, and it was cool. I chilled with Amanda a lot, which was nice. And I got re-aquanted (sp) with sandra. shes fun. and nice. I always hear these crazy things about what a bitch she is but I havent witnessed any of it. havent been that close to her i guess. or maybe people just overreact. I dunno. But shes cool. We all want to go camping sometime. Which would rock. Especially if sandras parents took us, because they are really laid back and have no real rules (she has no curfew, can go out whenever she wants with whoever she wants, more or less. they dont care if she does drugs "just dont drive"...but shes straight edge anyway, etc) so anyway, that would rock. I love my girls.
I am having a heart wrenching conversation with john. for once im not cracking when he talks about how much he hates himself. Im telling him I dont pity him. I think I have to tell him one more chance because if he fucks up one more time before we go away, I dont know if I can handle being his girlfriend. Well it would probably be just a break if that happened, but I dunno. I dont want that at all. But im so sick of forgiving and accomplishing nothing, you know? siiigh.
john didnt call again. too distracted at his friends house. figures. Im really tired of this.
sandra invited me to maine with a bunch of people which sounds like so much fun. i probably have to go to cape cod to stay in my grandparents oversized condo with my cousins who I dont talk to instead.
But let me update my life because some good things happened.
I dont think I talked about six flags yet. John planned it. It was very fun. We went on lots of roller coasters and such and it was a good time. Then Amanda and Kristen and maybe Erin planned a picnic which was fun, but quite dark because it was like 9 at night in the middle of the woods. but cool. It was very thoughtful.
Erin had a very fun birthday too. We saw Sheer Madness and stayed at a hotel and it was a good time. We went swimming in the pool and walked around coply a bit, and it was cool. I chilled with Amanda a lot, which was nice. And I got re-aquanted (sp) with sandra. shes fun. and nice. I always hear these crazy things about what a bitch she is but I havent witnessed any of it. havent been that close to her i guess. or maybe people just overreact. I dunno. But shes cool. We all want to go camping sometime. Which would rock. Especially if sandras parents took us, because they are really laid back and have no real rules (she has no curfew, can go out whenever she wants with whoever she wants, more or less. they dont care if she does drugs "just dont drive"...but shes straight edge anyway, etc) so anyway, that would rock. I love my girls.
I am having a heart wrenching conversation with john. for once im not cracking when he talks about how much he hates himself. Im telling him I dont pity him. I think I have to tell him one more chance because if he fucks up one more time before we go away, I dont know if I can handle being his girlfriend. Well it would probably be just a break if that happened, but I dunno. I dont want that at all. But im so sick of forgiving and accomplishing nothing, you know? siiigh.