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my mom left early this morning to go get my brother from his friends house in Washington. hoo hah.
christ more drama. i just got through some of the more intense drama kicks (other ppls) and i thought id escaped them for a little while, but i suppose its all over the place. that movie said that our addictions to our emotions and the chemical rushes we get is what causes human drama. so perhaps seperating yourself from your emotions and looking at things from a completley logical standpoint makes a lot of sense. His shrink thinks its an issue, but i dont see a problem with it. hes not entirley detached, he knows what hes feeling and why and he knows healthy ways to express them so no harm is done to anyone. hes level headed, not lead by his dick or anger. so whats the problem? personally i think hes one of the most decent human beings ive ever met. and fuck, ive known him much longer than his shrink has. fucking almost 4 years. apparently his shrink thinks im "intriguing" whatever that means. so great. im a good ol' headcase. we both think that i should go with him to a session to meet this shrink. but we both agreed that we would stay away from breaking our relationship down to tiny bits. we agreed that its the last thing we need to analyze. im afraid that if we analyze it, it becomes less special, or itll ruin it. something will happen to make me change the way i feel and i dont want that, i enjoy the way i feel. and i enjoy the way he feels. the way we are when were together, its like weve already been married for 10 years and were perfectly comfortable with everything, but yet we can still flirt and tease. I dont know, but ive found my match and im happy. my gyno also thinks its a good idea for me to talk to a counselor. well, anyone really should talk to a counselor just for the sake of being able to talk to someone and know that you have complete confidentiality. theyre not ALLOWED to gossip about you, so its safe. but she reccommended it, especially at this age, theres a lot to talk about and sometimes theres no one to tell. i certanly wont tell my mom a lot of things. she likes to gab to herfriends about my personal stuff. shes got a very large mouth. ill ask her once again if our insurance covers counseling. if it does, im going whether she likes it or not. if not, ill just deal without it. keep writing letters and sending them to adresses that dont exist in cities that dont exist. just to make sure no one actually gets them, i check.
thats enough
ro
christ more drama. i just got through some of the more intense drama kicks (other ppls) and i thought id escaped them for a little while, but i suppose its all over the place. that movie said that our addictions to our emotions and the chemical rushes we get is what causes human drama. so perhaps seperating yourself from your emotions and looking at things from a completley logical standpoint makes a lot of sense. His shrink thinks its an issue, but i dont see a problem with it. hes not entirley detached, he knows what hes feeling and why and he knows healthy ways to express them so no harm is done to anyone. hes level headed, not lead by his dick or anger. so whats the problem? personally i think hes one of the most decent human beings ive ever met. and fuck, ive known him much longer than his shrink has. fucking almost 4 years. apparently his shrink thinks im "intriguing" whatever that means. so great. im a good ol' headcase. we both think that i should go with him to a session to meet this shrink. but we both agreed that we would stay away from breaking our relationship down to tiny bits. we agreed that its the last thing we need to analyze. im afraid that if we analyze it, it becomes less special, or itll ruin it. something will happen to make me change the way i feel and i dont want that, i enjoy the way i feel. and i enjoy the way he feels. the way we are when were together, its like weve already been married for 10 years and were perfectly comfortable with everything, but yet we can still flirt and tease. I dont know, but ive found my match and im happy. my gyno also thinks its a good idea for me to talk to a counselor. well, anyone really should talk to a counselor just for the sake of being able to talk to someone and know that you have complete confidentiality. theyre not ALLOWED to gossip about you, so its safe. but she reccommended it, especially at this age, theres a lot to talk about and sometimes theres no one to tell. i certanly wont tell my mom a lot of things. she likes to gab to herfriends about my personal stuff. shes got a very large mouth. ill ask her once again if our insurance covers counseling. if it does, im going whether she likes it or not. if not, ill just deal without it. keep writing letters and sending them to adresses that dont exist in cities that dont exist. just to make sure no one actually gets them, i check.
thats enough
ro