Eat The Ridiculous
I woke up at 6am this morning because I had a bad dream. I dreamt that Nigel and I went away for the day and were driving up the beach in his car (I was in the back seat) and we passed this blonde girl walking alongside. She was really pretty with a curvy bum in hotpants with a golden tan. And she and the boyf acknowledged each other through the window with mutual interest, and wouldn't stop looking each other up and down. And I was completely furious. And it was one of those dreams where I still felt really annoyed when I woke up.
I say it was a bad dream. But normally in a bad dream you get stalked or somebody gets killed. I think it has to be more about my own insecurity than anything else.
I've now been awake for about an hour. I saw a teenage boy get knocked off his bike by a garbage truck today and I don't know if he died or not. I was on the bus at the time. Surely it would have been mentioned on the local news.
It sounds a bit stupid, but now I'm kind of thinking should I have gone this year with the rest of you. Let's face it, the reason I didn't go this year was because of Nigel. I didn't want to leave now without seeing what would happen, which I'm sure you can all relate to, because everybody has left people. It's just that I am in love with him and I would miss him really badly if I left now, like I remember being in Beijing about 3 months after we got together and not being able to think of anything else the whole time I was there.
I've also got this really naive idea in my head that if we are still together by next September (big IF), then he might drop everything and come with me. Although it sounds even more silly written down.
Meh, never mind. I think it's too far in the future to even worry about now. Especially when everyone has so many new things to face at the moment. I hope you guys are all having an amazing time at uni, and I hope you know I'm going to be coming down to visit you all every other week..
I say it was a bad dream. But normally in a bad dream you get stalked or somebody gets killed. I think it has to be more about my own insecurity than anything else.
I've now been awake for about an hour. I saw a teenage boy get knocked off his bike by a garbage truck today and I don't know if he died or not. I was on the bus at the time. Surely it would have been mentioned on the local news.
It sounds a bit stupid, but now I'm kind of thinking should I have gone this year with the rest of you. Let's face it, the reason I didn't go this year was because of Nigel. I didn't want to leave now without seeing what would happen, which I'm sure you can all relate to, because everybody has left people. It's just that I am in love with him and I would miss him really badly if I left now, like I remember being in Beijing about 3 months after we got together and not being able to think of anything else the whole time I was there.
I've also got this really naive idea in my head that if we are still together by next September (big IF), then he might drop everything and come with me. Although it sounds even more silly written down.
Meh, never mind. I think it's too far in the future to even worry about now. Especially when everyone has so many new things to face at the moment. I hope you guys are all having an amazing time at uni, and I hope you know I'm going to be coming down to visit you all every other week..