Final Post
This will be my final post on livejournal.
I have finally lost hope in a lot of my old friends. Yesterday was the one day I really needed somebody. I'm getting sick and felt like I was just about to fall over, I called into my professor and told him I wasn't going to be there (which killed me, I love that class). I decided I was going to go pay some bills and pick up lunch for Tony. Went outside and my car wouldn't start. I pretty much called everyone in my cellphone, most people didn't pick up and the ones that did said they would call me back, guess what, no one ever called me back. I was in tears, hystrical. I just needed a friend to be there, the shop changed Tony's hours suck, he didn't get off of work until 6:30pm and by the time we got home it was too dark to fix my car. So now, we are sharing his car. So that means I get to get up at 5am drive him to about 15 to 20 minutes to work, drive home, go to class which is about 20 to 30 mintues away then back home, and then drive back to his work get him and drive home. There's at least a tank right there.
I just wished the people I thought were my friends that really aren't would step up and say something to be instead of copping out and making excuses. I wouldn't be as hurt and I would disappear from their lives. I mean come on. I had to get my boyfriend's sister to drive me to pay my bills yesterday. She took me over to her house and got meds in me and made dinner for her kids and Tony and I. I should have people other than my family or his family that gives a damn about me.
This is why I am writing that final post, because the only people that know my livejournal account are the one's I'm talking about. Get over yourselves. Friends and family are what matter. I am always there for my friends, I'd jump through hoops for them but not anymore, if they aren't going to be there for me when I accutally need something from them, I guess it's time for me to start new.
If you feel you need to get a hold of me, you know how to reach me. Of course it's not guarrenteed I'll answer you.
Good-bye.
I have finally lost hope in a lot of my old friends. Yesterday was the one day I really needed somebody. I'm getting sick and felt like I was just about to fall over, I called into my professor and told him I wasn't going to be there (which killed me, I love that class). I decided I was going to go pay some bills and pick up lunch for Tony. Went outside and my car wouldn't start. I pretty much called everyone in my cellphone, most people didn't pick up and the ones that did said they would call me back, guess what, no one ever called me back. I was in tears, hystrical. I just needed a friend to be there, the shop changed Tony's hours suck, he didn't get off of work until 6:30pm and by the time we got home it was too dark to fix my car. So now, we are sharing his car. So that means I get to get up at 5am drive him to about 15 to 20 minutes to work, drive home, go to class which is about 20 to 30 mintues away then back home, and then drive back to his work get him and drive home. There's at least a tank right there.
I just wished the people I thought were my friends that really aren't would step up and say something to be instead of copping out and making excuses. I wouldn't be as hurt and I would disappear from their lives. I mean come on. I had to get my boyfriend's sister to drive me to pay my bills yesterday. She took me over to her house and got meds in me and made dinner for her kids and Tony and I. I should have people other than my family or his family that gives a damn about me.
This is why I am writing that final post, because the only people that know my livejournal account are the one's I'm talking about. Get over yourselves. Friends and family are what matter. I am always there for my friends, I'd jump through hoops for them but not anymore, if they aren't going to be there for me when I accutally need something from them, I guess it's time for me to start new.
If you feel you need to get a hold of me, you know how to reach me. Of course it's not guarrenteed I'll answer you.
Good-bye.