fatalitaaaaa
Sorry about those last two entries. One was fucking stupid emo shit, and the other was a fucking picture of Reese's. That. Yeah. I don't know.
Talking to relatives is such a hassle sometimes. Talking to anyone is a hassle for me sometimes. Most of the time. It's not that I'm nervous, per se, it's just that I put so much thought into every response. I'm thinking too much, maybe.
Meanwhile... I don't know. I was so happy recently but it's just gone. I don't know what happened. I felt so much better. I felt carefree and I felt... I don't know. I didn't feel obligated. That's the problem with Tyler, is that I feel obligated to talk to him. I'm stuck thinking that he needs me. I don't think this is true, but I do think he is still under the illusion that we're going to get back together. I thought I explained to him that I don't want to. The best thing would be for me to seriously just not talk to him anymore. But I fucking can't. I've tried so hard. I've been trying since July. I just can't do it no matter how hard I try. I just figure "Hey, a friend would be talking to a friend, it's no big deal." But it IS a big deal. We shouldn't be friends. We can't stay friends. I don't want him as a friend. I don't want him at all. I just need to get out of this.
Cut my hair. What a dick move! It looks good, though. It's blue and short and beautiful. Pictures one day. Maybe.
I woke up this morning with a cold. Damn it. My nose is stuffy as hell.
AND ALSO I was reading this one fanfic on fanfiction.net, and it only went to Chapter 41 and it ended on SUCH A downer and I literally wept. It was so fucking sad. BUT THEN I found out that there were more chapters posted here on Livejournal! And I did weep again. With joy! Actually, I didn't weep! But I threw my fists in the air and went "YAAAAAAY!" I get so excited about fanfics. Ahahahaha get a life
I gotta piss. I had tons of stuff to say last night but I don't remember any of it. I need to sneeze. OH GOD SNEEZING OVER AND OVER
also: check out my Jimmy Urine icon. I'm back in a Mindless Self Indulgence stage. I was listening to their shit last night and watching live stuff and I'm like "FUCK no wonder I loved this shit" And I do still love it. They'z da bomb.
ALSO, important note: You may have noticed that I'm pretty shit at replying to comments. This is because I just... I don't reply. It's hard for me to get around to it, keep up with it. So if that bothers you... you know. defriend me or whatever.
Talking to relatives is such a hassle sometimes. Talking to anyone is a hassle for me sometimes. Most of the time. It's not that I'm nervous, per se, it's just that I put so much thought into every response. I'm thinking too much, maybe.
Meanwhile... I don't know. I was so happy recently but it's just gone. I don't know what happened. I felt so much better. I felt carefree and I felt... I don't know. I didn't feel obligated. That's the problem with Tyler, is that I feel obligated to talk to him. I'm stuck thinking that he needs me. I don't think this is true, but I do think he is still under the illusion that we're going to get back together. I thought I explained to him that I don't want to. The best thing would be for me to seriously just not talk to him anymore. But I fucking can't. I've tried so hard. I've been trying since July. I just can't do it no matter how hard I try. I just figure "Hey, a friend would be talking to a friend, it's no big deal." But it IS a big deal. We shouldn't be friends. We can't stay friends. I don't want him as a friend. I don't want him at all. I just need to get out of this.
Cut my hair. What a dick move! It looks good, though. It's blue and short and beautiful. Pictures one day. Maybe.
I woke up this morning with a cold. Damn it. My nose is stuffy as hell.
AND ALSO I was reading this one fanfic on fanfiction.net, and it only went to Chapter 41 and it ended on SUCH A downer and I literally wept. It was so fucking sad. BUT THEN I found out that there were more chapters posted here on Livejournal! And I did weep again. With joy! Actually, I didn't weep! But I threw my fists in the air and went "YAAAAAAY!" I get so excited about fanfics. Ahahahaha get a life
I gotta piss. I had tons of stuff to say last night but I don't remember any of it. I need to sneeze. OH GOD SNEEZING OVER AND OVER
also: check out my Jimmy Urine icon. I'm back in a Mindless Self Indulgence stage. I was listening to their shit last night and watching live stuff and I'm like "FUCK no wonder I loved this shit" And I do still love it. They'z da bomb.
ALSO, important note: You may have noticed that I'm pretty shit at replying to comments. This is because I just... I don't reply. It's hard for me to get around to it, keep up with it. So if that bothers you... you know. defriend me or whatever.