hi... ... update... if you're interested?
Um, hi everyone.
Just to say that I'm better now and off some meds. Increased on others though.
I'm mani-depressive and bipolar (which ain't helping the manic OR depressive bits I can tell you), slightly anorexic bulimic (why yes, it's possible), Asperger's still bites, and paranoid (like wildeyed thinking my mom's evil and needing knife like security blanket kind, not slight twitch kind).
I have a host of other minor stuff, but on the average I'm doing MUCH better than the last few weeks.
I'm trying not to get committed (to a room with cushy WALLS, y'know), or hospital... again. Trying also not to do another overdose... or suicide/homicide attempt. Or... other stuff, really.
I'm sorry if this sounds bitter or annoys anyone. Sometimes I sound arrogant by accident. Let me know if something annoys, because it's probably an accident. I'm a people-pleaser to a fault. (which sucks too)
Feeling annoying about how emo-whiney this update sounds, I should end on the note I have a massive thing for lolita. I dress up only in my room, but I'm going to its birthplace (TOKYO BABY WHOOOOOOO) next month! So I'll be packing frills, lace and a big... big... wallet.
I should also thank everyone I know on livejournal. I tend not to comment because I'm a needy insecure bitch, but you guys make me laugh with your fics, arts or even conversations (I actually read aggybird and avalon's conversations sometimes. *coughCLOWNScough*)
And surprisingly, I am coming to love my uberstrict and uberprim, uberChristian school. They are very loving, sweet, awesome, and awesome (yes, it's repeated) people, even my headmistress. They are, afterall, putting up with a maniac.
Hugs (cautiously in case affection is unwanted),
me.
Just to say that I'm better now and off some meds. Increased on others though.
I'm mani-depressive and bipolar (which ain't helping the manic OR depressive bits I can tell you), slightly anorexic bulimic (why yes, it's possible), Asperger's still bites, and paranoid (like wildeyed thinking my mom's evil and needing knife like security blanket kind, not slight twitch kind).
I have a host of other minor stuff, but on the average I'm doing MUCH better than the last few weeks.
I'm trying not to get committed (to a room with cushy WALLS, y'know), or hospital... again. Trying also not to do another overdose... or suicide/homicide attempt. Or... other stuff, really.
I'm sorry if this sounds bitter or annoys anyone. Sometimes I sound arrogant by accident. Let me know if something annoys, because it's probably an accident. I'm a people-pleaser to a fault. (which sucks too)
Feeling annoying about how emo-whiney this update sounds, I should end on the note I have a massive thing for lolita. I dress up only in my room, but I'm going to its birthplace (TOKYO BABY WHOOOOOOO) next month! So I'll be packing frills, lace and a big... big... wallet.
I should also thank everyone I know on livejournal. I tend not to comment because I'm a needy insecure bitch, but you guys make me laugh with your fics, arts or even conversations (I actually read aggybird and avalon's conversations sometimes. *coughCLOWNScough*)
And surprisingly, I am coming to love my uberstrict and uberprim, uberChristian school. They are very loving, sweet, awesome, and awesome (yes, it's repeated) people, even my headmistress. They are, afterall, putting up with a maniac.
Hugs (cautiously in case affection is unwanted),
me.