I was always a tad over zealous for Halloween
Already bought my costume for Shivaun's fair thing at her church next month. It's October 24th and I really can't wait. Of course because I'm excited for it I'm sure something's going to pop up that keeps us from going. Though I figure if mom and dad have a schedule conflict I can find a way there. Hopefully.
I wanted to be something a little different this year. As much as I love the holiday I tend to always wear the same costumes so I have nothing to worry about besides candy stockage and the slave labor that is helping Shivaun at her church functions.
So I picked escaped prisoner. Handcuffs and all (broke them in half so I could wear them but still use my hands. Thought it added to the look. I want to get a ball and chain leg shackel too, but of course I have plenty of time.) I figured it was appropriate for the occasion. Jackie's probably going to have a field day though.
Still can't find any freaking work. I have a studio I can work out of now, and a contact from said studio (owner) who said I could help him with a live show in the upcoming weeks (and he can pay me for it!). So it's a start, but I'm honestly not even kind of happier. He said I should have a cd/reel ready to show studios what I can do. My dumb ass school NEVER suggested this to us. The more I think back the more I'm starting to think I picked a rotten school.
Honestly their Op Support, Scheduling staff, Departments, and especially Career Developement are all a freaking joke. A big part of the problems I'm having is the studios working with programs I NEVER LEARNED ABOUT in school. Of course LARS has a contract with DigiDesign, so all I ever really learned was ProTools and about 2-3 other things (sort of).
Career Developement is the worst. The advice they keep giving is nothing I haven't heard or utilized before. Everything they say has failed me. And they make it no secret that they don't care whether I'm hired somewhere or not. "Well your ultimate career path is up to you". Yes I know. But I've been doing this more or less on my own for over a year and apparently it's not working. Freaking HELP ME!
But the funny thing is I'm on their website. My picture's on the site if you click through the online tour or whatever it's called. They put more money into vamping up that site than they did into my education.
I'm really scared. I'm so sick of school and I'm more sick of having nothing. Absolutely nothing. My home is not my home, my job is basically helping mom out which I'd be doing whether I was working or not, and besides Melissa I feel like I have no one to really talk to. I should give her a lot of credit. For as much as I complain about, well, everything, I got lucky in one area of life and (FINALLY!) have a really great best friend.
But she won't be around for too long (location wise) and there's really not much else for me here. The last thing I want to do is have to start over again. And I'd rather eat dirt than start another school.
I'm thinking of taking a couple classes so that I can keep myself busy as well as help my career. I might look into a video editing class (I've lost quite a few interviews because I'm not trained for both, which is assinine but I digress) and I want to take a stand up comedy class. I know where to take it, but I have really bad stage fright. Lately it's come to my attention that I could probably be really good at stand up if I had a little help. That is NOT my career however. Just something I'd like to say I can do as a hobby.
I really don't understand why I'm having so much trouble finding places that need a sound effects editor. I'm not even picky. I'd be extactic to do anything from Foley, to ADR, CUTTING BACKGROUNDS! Honestly, everyone complains about doing background noise, but I'd freaking love it. I'd love any of it. And let's just be honest here, I'm freaking good at it. I'm a little rusty with the technical part of the system, but it's really hard to find someone as enthusiastic about sound as I am.
My whole life I've only ever cared about one thing. I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, even when I started at LARS, until the first day of post production class. I've never felt that way about anything. It was like fireworks, really. After 5 minutes of background noise, just background noise, it was this feeling of "This is it. This is what's going to make me happy."
Still waiting on that happiness...
I wanted to be something a little different this year. As much as I love the holiday I tend to always wear the same costumes so I have nothing to worry about besides candy stockage and the slave labor that is helping Shivaun at her church functions.
So I picked escaped prisoner. Handcuffs and all (broke them in half so I could wear them but still use my hands. Thought it added to the look. I want to get a ball and chain leg shackel too, but of course I have plenty of time.) I figured it was appropriate for the occasion. Jackie's probably going to have a field day though.
Still can't find any freaking work. I have a studio I can work out of now, and a contact from said studio (owner) who said I could help him with a live show in the upcoming weeks (and he can pay me for it!). So it's a start, but I'm honestly not even kind of happier. He said I should have a cd/reel ready to show studios what I can do. My dumb ass school NEVER suggested this to us. The more I think back the more I'm starting to think I picked a rotten school.
Honestly their Op Support, Scheduling staff, Departments, and especially Career Developement are all a freaking joke. A big part of the problems I'm having is the studios working with programs I NEVER LEARNED ABOUT in school. Of course LARS has a contract with DigiDesign, so all I ever really learned was ProTools and about 2-3 other things (sort of).
Career Developement is the worst. The advice they keep giving is nothing I haven't heard or utilized before. Everything they say has failed me. And they make it no secret that they don't care whether I'm hired somewhere or not. "Well your ultimate career path is up to you". Yes I know. But I've been doing this more or less on my own for over a year and apparently it's not working. Freaking HELP ME!
But the funny thing is I'm on their website. My picture's on the site if you click through the online tour or whatever it's called. They put more money into vamping up that site than they did into my education.
I'm really scared. I'm so sick of school and I'm more sick of having nothing. Absolutely nothing. My home is not my home, my job is basically helping mom out which I'd be doing whether I was working or not, and besides Melissa I feel like I have no one to really talk to. I should give her a lot of credit. For as much as I complain about, well, everything, I got lucky in one area of life and (FINALLY!) have a really great best friend.
But she won't be around for too long (location wise) and there's really not much else for me here. The last thing I want to do is have to start over again. And I'd rather eat dirt than start another school.
I'm thinking of taking a couple classes so that I can keep myself busy as well as help my career. I might look into a video editing class (I've lost quite a few interviews because I'm not trained for both, which is assinine but I digress) and I want to take a stand up comedy class. I know where to take it, but I have really bad stage fright. Lately it's come to my attention that I could probably be really good at stand up if I had a little help. That is NOT my career however. Just something I'd like to say I can do as a hobby.
I really don't understand why I'm having so much trouble finding places that need a sound effects editor. I'm not even picky. I'd be extactic to do anything from Foley, to ADR, CUTTING BACKGROUNDS! Honestly, everyone complains about doing background noise, but I'd freaking love it. I'd love any of it. And let's just be honest here, I'm freaking good at it. I'm a little rusty with the technical part of the system, but it's really hard to find someone as enthusiastic about sound as I am.
My whole life I've only ever cared about one thing. I didn't know what I wanted to do with my life, even when I started at LARS, until the first day of post production class. I've never felt that way about anything. It was like fireworks, really. After 5 minutes of background noise, just background noise, it was this feeling of "This is it. This is what's going to make me happy."
Still waiting on that happiness...