I had one of those infinite moments today
It came as a result of several ego-boosting moments today. The first was when I was just getting in the studio waiting for someone to come around. One of the Jacks was walking in and showed me his studio equipment (he does editing and the like, so it was mostly computer gear). He said he and Richie had been talking about how they're so sad about my talent being wasted. I immediately thought to myself "They haven't seen me work or anything. How do they know..."
But Jack says quoting Richie directly: "It's just very sad. Brienne's so talented and all she ever does around here is clean. She really needs a chance."
So already I'm all giddy and in a good mood. It's one thing to be liked, but now I'm respected. Fantastic. So later I'm sitting in the new screening room with Guy, Chris (he's a performer among other jobs and such, hard to explain in depth), and a lady they called something like Sis (I feel horrible, I gave her a hard time about forgetting my name and her's is escaping me at present).
Don (who I didn't think liked me much) walks in and sees me and Melissa (film intern). He turns to Guy and says "Why do you take all my good interns! Jason and I were trying to keep her with us! Now you get all the good interns and I'm left with shit". So again I feel special. For doing mundane and relatively mediocre tasks I've been recognized as someone worth working with. I was so proud.
My infinite moment is thanks to Chris. After spending the night out with the group having dinner and talking about our lives and all that, Sis starts talking about a project she did and the sound was messed up. I asked what was wrong with it and when she described it I immediately knew it was fixable.
"I can fix it. Seriously. It sounds like if you get it into a ProTools rig and bring me in I can fix it relatively easily if I have a few hours." (Yes, it would be an easy fix, just kind of long in terms of having to do it manually.) Chris speaks up.
"See look at this. All this talent and you're just reserved and in the background. That's really sad. It's not fair either. I feel like we need to bring you out so you can finally get your chance."
I was thinking to myself on the way to work today that I didn't really matter. That maybe you just don't matter if nobody loves you. And after today I realized that I do matter. Not because of my amount of friends, not because of who I'm dating, not because I go out all the time; but because of what I'm good at. Because I love doing what I'm good at. And apparently I've made enough difference to notice.
Today I knew for sure I have a future.
But Jack says quoting Richie directly: "It's just very sad. Brienne's so talented and all she ever does around here is clean. She really needs a chance."
So already I'm all giddy and in a good mood. It's one thing to be liked, but now I'm respected. Fantastic. So later I'm sitting in the new screening room with Guy, Chris (he's a performer among other jobs and such, hard to explain in depth), and a lady they called something like Sis (I feel horrible, I gave her a hard time about forgetting my name and her's is escaping me at present).
Don (who I didn't think liked me much) walks in and sees me and Melissa (film intern). He turns to Guy and says "Why do you take all my good interns! Jason and I were trying to keep her with us! Now you get all the good interns and I'm left with shit". So again I feel special. For doing mundane and relatively mediocre tasks I've been recognized as someone worth working with. I was so proud.
My infinite moment is thanks to Chris. After spending the night out with the group having dinner and talking about our lives and all that, Sis starts talking about a project she did and the sound was messed up. I asked what was wrong with it and when she described it I immediately knew it was fixable.
"I can fix it. Seriously. It sounds like if you get it into a ProTools rig and bring me in I can fix it relatively easily if I have a few hours." (Yes, it would be an easy fix, just kind of long in terms of having to do it manually.) Chris speaks up.
"See look at this. All this talent and you're just reserved and in the background. That's really sad. It's not fair either. I feel like we need to bring you out so you can finally get your chance."
I was thinking to myself on the way to work today that I didn't really matter. That maybe you just don't matter if nobody loves you. And after today I realized that I do matter. Not because of my amount of friends, not because of who I'm dating, not because I go out all the time; but because of what I'm good at. Because I love doing what I'm good at. And apparently I've made enough difference to notice.
Today I knew for sure I have a future.