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Today when Brooke was driving me home, she said she was going to go buy a copy of Catcher in the Rye. I told her she could use my copy. She got all worked up about not being able to write notes in it. So I said "What the hell do I care if there's notes in it?" I seriously don't care. It's pretty much equivalent to writing "Brooke was here" at various places in the book.
As she was getting back in the car to leave, my mom called me to the garage to help with the dog, who made a disgusting mess of her cage. I shouted my cell phone number to Brooke, which I hope she heard, then told her to go. Because I knew the disgusting, smelly dog was about to jump all over me as my mom came at me with the hose. But of course, Brooke took her sweet ass time in leaving. Till I finally shouted at her to go the hell away. She was laughing, but I still left her a voicemail apologizing for it. I don't like yelling around her. Or anyone really. I've been trying to stay calm the best I can.
I'm probably getting Taco Bell then Baskin Robbins later tonight. Kellyn and I are going to hang out. She's planning my bridal shower. She's all excited about the double B thing. I'm starting to think I'm the only one who understands that I'M NOT ACTUALLY GOING TO MARRY HER!
Oh yeah, and Kelly killed someone. Nice birthday present. Remind me not to visit her at work on my birthday. I'm happy because her and Brooke work together and finally met. They seem to be getting along. I'm going to try not to go to Ruby's when they're working together. Actually I'm likely to avoid Brooke like the plague while she's working. It's hard to explain. But it'll be like gasoline on a fire if her and Kelly work together while I'm eating there. Ugh. Add Kellyn to the mix. I can see Kellyn making me go there to visit them one night.
Despite the difficult afternoon, it's been an ok day. I'm trying so hard to stay distracted. I hate my birthday. I can't use words to express just how much I hate this time of year. But my friend seems to be having a worse week. Poor guy. I'll be sure to keep him in my prayers.
So, question for anyone paying attention. I need to convince someone that I'm over Denise in the non-friend way. We made up and worked out our differences and are more or less friends again, but friends is all. Not even as close as we used to be (obviously). But the person who needs to understand this the most, thinks I'm still in love with her. No words I can say will convince her. And I can't ask anyone else to talk to her about it cuz it's meant to be said by me. What the hell do I do?
As she was getting back in the car to leave, my mom called me to the garage to help with the dog, who made a disgusting mess of her cage. I shouted my cell phone number to Brooke, which I hope she heard, then told her to go. Because I knew the disgusting, smelly dog was about to jump all over me as my mom came at me with the hose. But of course, Brooke took her sweet ass time in leaving. Till I finally shouted at her to go the hell away. She was laughing, but I still left her a voicemail apologizing for it. I don't like yelling around her. Or anyone really. I've been trying to stay calm the best I can.
I'm probably getting Taco Bell then Baskin Robbins later tonight. Kellyn and I are going to hang out. She's planning my bridal shower. She's all excited about the double B thing. I'm starting to think I'm the only one who understands that I'M NOT ACTUALLY GOING TO MARRY HER!
Oh yeah, and Kelly killed someone. Nice birthday present. Remind me not to visit her at work on my birthday. I'm happy because her and Brooke work together and finally met. They seem to be getting along. I'm going to try not to go to Ruby's when they're working together. Actually I'm likely to avoid Brooke like the plague while she's working. It's hard to explain. But it'll be like gasoline on a fire if her and Kelly work together while I'm eating there. Ugh. Add Kellyn to the mix. I can see Kellyn making me go there to visit them one night.
Despite the difficult afternoon, it's been an ok day. I'm trying so hard to stay distracted. I hate my birthday. I can't use words to express just how much I hate this time of year. But my friend seems to be having a worse week. Poor guy. I'll be sure to keep him in my prayers.
So, question for anyone paying attention. I need to convince someone that I'm over Denise in the non-friend way. We made up and worked out our differences and are more or less friends again, but friends is all. Not even as close as we used to be (obviously). But the person who needs to understand this the most, thinks I'm still in love with her. No words I can say will convince her. And I can't ask anyone else to talk to her about it cuz it's meant to be said by me. What the hell do I do?