Revelation.
Counting down, approximately 9 hours till school commence. I am experiencing this huge wave of emotions, it's almost incomprehensible. Part of me want to go back to school to see all my friends again, part of me (a major part in fact) dread going back to my mundane life of sleepless nights & tight deadlines.
Throughout my holiday, i was in a state of denial, pushing thoughts of going back to school way back into my brain. I was escaping all these while and yet right now, i can't get it out of my mind. 'I'm starting school later.. i'm starting school later..' It keeps on chanting inside, almost like a broken record, rather, the fact is etched in my mind, theres no way to run, here comes year 3. It's either i make it or break it.
I wish life wasn't so tough on us, i wished we could do things our way, in our own comfortable pace. Life is this wild goose chase, we keep pushing ourselves to catch up with the society, it wears us down before we know it. Seriously i don't give a fuck about certificates. It doesn't make you a better person, it doesn't make you more dignified. (Society made us care shit about it) Oh, how i wish i could stay young forever, simply because i hate grow up. Talking about young, my buddy victor turned 20 today. Time flies, a time machine is needed to go back to times of wonderful memories, yes? I remember us getting into trouble in class, teasing our friends shamelessly, and chuckle at the slightest things. I can't believe he's a grown man alr! My turn's gna come in another 2 month's time. I am no longer a teen, 20 is spelled without the 'teen' behind, but it doesn't hurt spelling it as twenteen does it?
'I don't know, it's stupid being 20, i'm just not ready. It feels weird, like somebody's pushing me from behind.' - Haruki murakami.
Back to school -hello, help. gulp.
Throughout my holiday, i was in a state of denial, pushing thoughts of going back to school way back into my brain. I was escaping all these while and yet right now, i can't get it out of my mind. 'I'm starting school later.. i'm starting school later..' It keeps on chanting inside, almost like a broken record, rather, the fact is etched in my mind, theres no way to run, here comes year 3. It's either i make it or break it.
I wish life wasn't so tough on us, i wished we could do things our way, in our own comfortable pace. Life is this wild goose chase, we keep pushing ourselves to catch up with the society, it wears us down before we know it. Seriously i don't give a fuck about certificates. It doesn't make you a better person, it doesn't make you more dignified. (Society made us care shit about it) Oh, how i wish i could stay young forever, simply because i hate grow up. Talking about young, my buddy victor turned 20 today. Time flies, a time machine is needed to go back to times of wonderful memories, yes? I remember us getting into trouble in class, teasing our friends shamelessly, and chuckle at the slightest things. I can't believe he's a grown man alr! My turn's gna come in another 2 month's time. I am no longer a teen, 20 is spelled without the 'teen' behind, but it doesn't hurt spelling it as twenteen does it?
'I don't know, it's stupid being 20, i'm just not ready. It feels weird, like somebody's pushing me from behind.' - Haruki murakami.
Back to school -hello, help. gulp.