uggggghhhhhhhh
how many times can i update in one day? i don't know... too many.
how can i sit on my ass all day and somehow still find something to write about? i don't know... maybe because nothing i actually write about is of any importance whatsoever.
so it's 5:30am. i got in bed for a good 10-20 minutes maybe... and then i thought of something i should do, so i got up and did it. and now i'm sitting on the computer again. what the hell is wrong with me?
and remember this? well that didn't last long did it?
ok, and if brandon telling me to 'keep creating' isn't enough inpiration for me, then what the hell is? i mean holy lord...
it's like, i want to change, but anything that requires trying is out by default.
it's like i think some sort of magic will change me. i sure as hell know that's not the way life works, but.... i have no idea!!!!!
it'd also help if i ever remembered to take my god damn benadryl. getting on even a somewhat normal sleep schedule would have to help me out a little bit...
i'm so sick of myself. and i'm so sick of complaining about myself. and i'm so sick of all the same shit i put myself through...
give me religion
and a lobotomy
how can i sit on my ass all day and somehow still find something to write about? i don't know... maybe because nothing i actually write about is of any importance whatsoever.
so it's 5:30am. i got in bed for a good 10-20 minutes maybe... and then i thought of something i should do, so i got up and did it. and now i'm sitting on the computer again. what the hell is wrong with me?
and remember this? well that didn't last long did it?
ok, and if brandon telling me to 'keep creating' isn't enough inpiration for me, then what the hell is? i mean holy lord...
it's like, i want to change, but anything that requires trying is out by default.
it's like i think some sort of magic will change me. i sure as hell know that's not the way life works, but.... i have no idea!!!!!
it'd also help if i ever remembered to take my god damn benadryl. getting on even a somewhat normal sleep schedule would have to help me out a little bit...
i'm so sick of myself. and i'm so sick of complaining about myself. and i'm so sick of all the same shit i put myself through...
give me religion
and a lobotomy