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wow, i'm so depressed now....
i was watching this thing on VH1 tonight about child stars... and they mentioned Jonathan Brandis. Which i must say was nice because there was almost NO mention of his suicide anywhere. So through watching this, i found out he hung himself. i don't know what it is, but of all ways to kill yourself, hanging always gets me the most. i think because you really would have to plan that out i think. i mean overdosing you could do in a matter of seconds. a spur of the moment kind of thing. but i don't think hanging yourself would be as quick. i dunno. but anyway, it made me want to find out more about what happened with him. basically he was depressed because his career wasn't going as well as he'd hoped. he thought he'd make this great comeback, but he didn't. however, he had been praised as a great actor and people thought he would soon be a huge star as an adult. but i guess he couldn't see that. so since i read all this stuff about him on websites, it made me cry. i had such a huge crush on him when i was younger. man, i watched 'sidekicks' like a million times. i had most of it memorized, i swear.
i guess what really gets me is that he seemed like such a good kid ya know? so innocent. and what was weird was not long before i found out he killed himself, i'd wondered if he'd fallen off the face of the earth. i dunno. it was so depressing. cuz it was like, 'nooo!!!" like it just shouldn't have gone that way...
but anyway, i clicked on this one link that brought me to this 'suicide memorial' page thing. where anyone can post a person's name and info. and let me tell you, i almost cried! because about half of the people listed were born in the 80s. the most common years i saw were 85 and 86! that just seems like little kids to me! basically it's all these 14-16 year old kids killing themselves. one had my exact birthday, and so that one really got to me. and one of the worst was a girl born in 1990. she killed herself in 2001. that's 11 freaking years old! i couldn't stop reading them as sad as it was... i mean you just have to wonder what was so bad for these kids.
ugggh, i'm so depressed.
oh yeah, and back to jonathan brandis... his friends knew he'd been drinking a lot. and he'd mentioned to them that he wanted to kill himself, but no one took him seriously. GOD!!! that makes me so mad! i mean, someone could have stopped him. if only someone took him seriously. ugh, it just makes me want to cry. He was only 27. you just wish you could tell him how much more life he had to make a comeback. but now he'll never have that chance. ok, good lord, i really need to stop thinking about it. cuz i can't change it and that's what makes me mad.
ok, it's almost 3 and i was going to go to sleep 3 hours ago...
i was watching this thing on VH1 tonight about child stars... and they mentioned Jonathan Brandis. Which i must say was nice because there was almost NO mention of his suicide anywhere. So through watching this, i found out he hung himself. i don't know what it is, but of all ways to kill yourself, hanging always gets me the most. i think because you really would have to plan that out i think. i mean overdosing you could do in a matter of seconds. a spur of the moment kind of thing. but i don't think hanging yourself would be as quick. i dunno. but anyway, it made me want to find out more about what happened with him. basically he was depressed because his career wasn't going as well as he'd hoped. he thought he'd make this great comeback, but he didn't. however, he had been praised as a great actor and people thought he would soon be a huge star as an adult. but i guess he couldn't see that. so since i read all this stuff about him on websites, it made me cry. i had such a huge crush on him when i was younger. man, i watched 'sidekicks' like a million times. i had most of it memorized, i swear.
i guess what really gets me is that he seemed like such a good kid ya know? so innocent. and what was weird was not long before i found out he killed himself, i'd wondered if he'd fallen off the face of the earth. i dunno. it was so depressing. cuz it was like, 'nooo!!!" like it just shouldn't have gone that way...
but anyway, i clicked on this one link that brought me to this 'suicide memorial' page thing. where anyone can post a person's name and info. and let me tell you, i almost cried! because about half of the people listed were born in the 80s. the most common years i saw were 85 and 86! that just seems like little kids to me! basically it's all these 14-16 year old kids killing themselves. one had my exact birthday, and so that one really got to me. and one of the worst was a girl born in 1990. she killed herself in 2001. that's 11 freaking years old! i couldn't stop reading them as sad as it was... i mean you just have to wonder what was so bad for these kids.
ugggh, i'm so depressed.
oh yeah, and back to jonathan brandis... his friends knew he'd been drinking a lot. and he'd mentioned to them that he wanted to kill himself, but no one took him seriously. GOD!!! that makes me so mad! i mean, someone could have stopped him. if only someone took him seriously. ugh, it just makes me want to cry. He was only 27. you just wish you could tell him how much more life he had to make a comeback. but now he'll never have that chance. ok, good lord, i really need to stop thinking about it. cuz i can't change it and that's what makes me mad.
ok, it's almost 3 and i was going to go to sleep 3 hours ago...