Feeling happy and hopeful
So,the past few days have been busy and it seems like after months and months of nothing really happening and nothing improving,suddenly changes have begun in a big way and i wonder if all the time off was somehow in preparation for the next phase of life.
I wonder if the so-called illness was my body and mind taking a break and healing,because now i am starting to feel better and stronger again i feel renewed and better than ever before.
Next week,My boyfriend and i move into our new super-duper flat together,it somehow feels like the next step,like living in a shared house togther was the test run.
Over the past few weeks,i had my doubts,about just about everything in my life.I've never really wanted to commit myself to someone before.I was a little afraid of really surrendering to love and sharing our lives together.Then i started thinking of how beautiful that is,how the imperfect bits have time to iron out and strengthen,how completely wonderful it is to be with someone and grow,face yourself and all the dark corners of your soul and become who you have always wanted to be.
And i wanted to write it down,commit it to memory so that i remember how precious and special it is that this person wants to spend their life with ME and how we have stuck together over the past 21 months,even though it hasn't been easy and life's little problems have got in the way from time to time,i know that this feels right and i am looking forward to the next part of the journey,especially as i get to share it with my best friend :)
I wonder if the so-called illness was my body and mind taking a break and healing,because now i am starting to feel better and stronger again i feel renewed and better than ever before.
Next week,My boyfriend and i move into our new super-duper flat together,it somehow feels like the next step,like living in a shared house togther was the test run.
Over the past few weeks,i had my doubts,about just about everything in my life.I've never really wanted to commit myself to someone before.I was a little afraid of really surrendering to love and sharing our lives together.Then i started thinking of how beautiful that is,how the imperfect bits have time to iron out and strengthen,how completely wonderful it is to be with someone and grow,face yourself and all the dark corners of your soul and become who you have always wanted to be.
And i wanted to write it down,commit it to memory so that i remember how precious and special it is that this person wants to spend their life with ME and how we have stuck together over the past 21 months,even though it hasn't been easy and life's little problems have got in the way from time to time,i know that this feels right and i am looking forward to the next part of the journey,especially as i get to share it with my best friend :)