and so it is....no love no glory.
i feel like a loser.
i'm so hard on myself in every aspect of my life.
it sucks big time. every time i go to dance class i get depress on how i am not good enough and how i look. i can't stand it. i hate feeling like that.
i started to apply at ball state and i don't know what i want to major in because i don't know if i want to make dance my life.
....its weird thinking about it though i only have one chance to make my life a good one. sometimes i feel like i have wasted my time in a way in high school on dance because it gets me down so much. maybe i let it get to me to much. i don't know i'm never good enough in anything it seems like.... i'm just average in everything dance, art, and theatre. i can never find my nich what i do best or what i love best.
i was thinking of being a music critic. it seems like something i would like to do because of the fact that music is my life. also that it seems right in a way because i talk about music alot and i just think that i would be good at it.
i don't know i'm just stressed and tired. and i have fucken blisters on my feet because of point at ballet to day. i swear point is the devil. i'm sure it was some torcher device back in the middle ages.
talk later....PEACE
i'm so hard on myself in every aspect of my life.
it sucks big time. every time i go to dance class i get depress on how i am not good enough and how i look. i can't stand it. i hate feeling like that.
i started to apply at ball state and i don't know what i want to major in because i don't know if i want to make dance my life.
....its weird thinking about it though i only have one chance to make my life a good one. sometimes i feel like i have wasted my time in a way in high school on dance because it gets me down so much. maybe i let it get to me to much. i don't know i'm never good enough in anything it seems like.... i'm just average in everything dance, art, and theatre. i can never find my nich what i do best or what i love best.
i was thinking of being a music critic. it seems like something i would like to do because of the fact that music is my life. also that it seems right in a way because i talk about music alot and i just think that i would be good at it.
i don't know i'm just stressed and tired. and i have fucken blisters on my feet because of point at ballet to day. i swear point is the devil. i'm sure it was some torcher device back in the middle ages.
talk later....PEACE