its been a long December.

[scarlet0begonia]

time passes me by like its nothing just a glimpse of what used to be. what everything used to be.
and yet thats what i live on is memories.
memories of what it felt like. what it feels like when it was a certain way.
music is my strongest reminder.
music is all that owns me right now.

hmm. so its new years. what should be my new years resolution?
i say it should be for me to be comfortable with myself.
and comfortable with the world around me, and not to hate it.
i'm nothing what i want to be.

something tells me that i could be better.
i could feel like myself again.
i hate conforming.
i need a new scene

karma is biting at my side right now.
a year is how long it took to find me.
a year...
shit i'm getting older.

i'm blind i'm deaf i'm mute.

i'm not happy people.
but thats my own fault