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i dont know why i am depressed really. i guess its just one of those nights. whenever i just sit around at night all alone i think about really worthless stuff. you know, the stuff that gets you sad.
i was talking to maria today...which is sometimes a bad idea. she analyzes the fuck out of everything especially me. everything i do, the way i act it all has some deeper meaning to something off with me. according to her i dont face problems and im afraid being successful. just because im not applying for UCS. i always hear that afraid of being good at something bullshit. i think that people that say that should be destroyed. i would love to be good at something believe me. (and please lets leave out the things that make me want to kill myself)
whatever, i just hate being analyzed by people that dont really know JACK SHIT ABOUT ME! All they see is the way i am at school and believe me that is a big fucking difference from the way i really feel at school. so i get bored and talk... does that mean i am A hyperconnected SPAZ?(MR.MARSHALL)
if ana's not smiling and making them smile...THE WORLD IS OVER! LETS ALL ASK HER WHATS WRONG ALLLL FUCKKIIIINNNGGGG DAAAAAY!!! WHEN ITS PERFECTLY CLEAR THAT I DONT WANT TO TALK !!!! sometimes i wish i had just started freshman year as a quiet little girl in the corner, then no one would know me or expect anything from me. i could fade in to the background like i would love to do nearly everyday. why cant people just leave me and me weird little world alone....
i was talking to maria today...which is sometimes a bad idea. she analyzes the fuck out of everything especially me. everything i do, the way i act it all has some deeper meaning to something off with me. according to her i dont face problems and im afraid being successful. just because im not applying for UCS. i always hear that afraid of being good at something bullshit. i think that people that say that should be destroyed. i would love to be good at something believe me. (and please lets leave out the things that make me want to kill myself)
whatever, i just hate being analyzed by people that dont really know JACK SHIT ABOUT ME! All they see is the way i am at school and believe me that is a big fucking difference from the way i really feel at school. so i get bored and talk... does that mean i am A hyperconnected SPAZ?(MR.MARSHALL)
if ana's not smiling and making them smile...THE WORLD IS OVER! LETS ALL ASK HER WHATS WRONG ALLLL FUCKKIIIINNNGGGG DAAAAAY!!! WHEN ITS PERFECTLY CLEAR THAT I DONT WANT TO TALK !!!! sometimes i wish i had just started freshman year as a quiet little girl in the corner, then no one would know me or expect anything from me. i could fade in to the background like i would love to do nearly everyday. why cant people just leave me and me weird little world alone....