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so Princeton was quite fun. full of fun bus rides, a broken bus tv, wandering around the "center of capitalism," late night doorway conversations, and complete lack of sleep. but things did not go as well as i would have liked. first, the food at the mall must have been poisoned or something because for many of us it did not agree with our stomachs. i was necessarily "hugging the toilet", but rather, i was more or less "hovering" if you get the drift. that made competing friday not good. the prose/poetry competition was fierce. there were many good people. i was hoping to do well, but i didn't. and i didn't break like last year. my ranks were 1-5-4-3. O_o that wasn't fun. my 2nd round judge said i should "be more interp" and "go over the top." thanks, but no. if i wanted to go "over the top" with the humor and sarcasm, i might as well just do my piece as a Humor piece. needless to say, i HATE interpy prose/poetry because it makes the category less of a speaking category. you can have a good balance between both, but if you are flat out doing a humor then go be in Humor. and the most annoying part was the kid from louisville who won in drama also got second place in prose. >_< i hate it when people double enter AND THEN practically win. if you do well in a category, STAY THERE. i don't want to deal with your extreme talent.
that was the majority of the annoying parts. then we came home and apparently there was a hobo at the rest stop. *shrugs* oh well.
there's always next week, i suppose...
i wish i couldn't worry as much about things. and i hate when people tell me not to worry about, for example, a test. i want to do well on the test so don't tell me to not care. i do care. and that's why i want to have a great speech season this year. because i care so much. sometimes i don't think people understand that i'm so passionate about speech. this is what i want to do with my life and that's why i'm so driven to succeed. and that's why i was so upset about not placing this weekend. it's not that i want to have something shiney to show off to people that will collect dust. i want to have something to show for my hard work. because yes, i do work hard. just because the people placed at perry doesn't mean that they work harder than me, dear speech coaches. i basically cut my piece myself and i practice in class, with my coach, and at home. so don't call me lazy and don't threaten to seperate debate from speech just because my hard work didn't shine through a perry chair. and i'm sorry you didn't win your precious glass bowl. but i am a hard worker and i am motivated. so don't lump me in with the lazy people. recognize that i am trying and working hard and root for me. i don't care if you know the other person better than me. i don't know. i just want to make the coaches proud that there are two very good prose/poeters and not just one. but i understand now that i can't go into a tournament expecting anything. i just have to go up there relaxed and do the best i can and if i don't do as well as i would have liked i should just say "oh well, there's always next week." but it just pissed me off that some of my judges hardly had anything good to say about me. they could have said something like "this was a really good round, but someone had to get the 1." a comment like that, i wouldn't have minded. but if all you can say is that i have an "interesting voice," then i don't know how to react but to be angry. maybe i should channel this anger into next week's tournament. that way i'll be motivated even more to kick ass. but for now i'm just going to let it be known that i am working as hard as i can and that i'm not lazy.
good night.
that was the majority of the annoying parts. then we came home and apparently there was a hobo at the rest stop. *shrugs* oh well.
there's always next week, i suppose...
i wish i couldn't worry as much about things. and i hate when people tell me not to worry about, for example, a test. i want to do well on the test so don't tell me to not care. i do care. and that's why i want to have a great speech season this year. because i care so much. sometimes i don't think people understand that i'm so passionate about speech. this is what i want to do with my life and that's why i'm so driven to succeed. and that's why i was so upset about not placing this weekend. it's not that i want to have something shiney to show off to people that will collect dust. i want to have something to show for my hard work. because yes, i do work hard. just because the people placed at perry doesn't mean that they work harder than me, dear speech coaches. i basically cut my piece myself and i practice in class, with my coach, and at home. so don't call me lazy and don't threaten to seperate debate from speech just because my hard work didn't shine through a perry chair. and i'm sorry you didn't win your precious glass bowl. but i am a hard worker and i am motivated. so don't lump me in with the lazy people. recognize that i am trying and working hard and root for me. i don't care if you know the other person better than me. i don't know. i just want to make the coaches proud that there are two very good prose/poeters and not just one. but i understand now that i can't go into a tournament expecting anything. i just have to go up there relaxed and do the best i can and if i don't do as well as i would have liked i should just say "oh well, there's always next week." but it just pissed me off that some of my judges hardly had anything good to say about me. they could have said something like "this was a really good round, but someone had to get the 1." a comment like that, i wouldn't have minded. but if all you can say is that i have an "interesting voice," then i don't know how to react but to be angry. maybe i should channel this anger into next week's tournament. that way i'll be motivated even more to kick ass. but for now i'm just going to let it be known that i am working as hard as i can and that i'm not lazy.
good night.