a mind at ease...
Sometimes, I think too much. I certinally don't mean to generalize and offend but I think many of us of the female race have a tendency to think and read into things too damn much. I'll have a conversation in my head dozens of times before I even DREAM of actually saying what I mean to someone. I don't think this is an awful trait, perhaps just one that could use some modification. I need lessons in just listening to what someone says, and sometimes just taking it at face value.
Bob Roberts, who is sadly the closest thing to a father figure that I have at the moment said to me today, "You're most likely gonna get hurt, cause that's what happens. You can't go thrugh life defensively worried about getting hurt, or you'll miss out on a lot."
I think he's right. Or, at least on the right track.
I know I haven't updated this thing in forever, which sucks for the sake of my records cause there's lots going on lately that i'm sure years down the line I would appreciate remembering. So for memories sake- I should remember, years from now, that I've been pretty damn happy lately. The usual stuggles of everyday life are still intact, of course, but I really don't have much to whine about. And if sometime down the line I do get hurt, cause in a way its inevitable (its either getting hurt, or other scary long term stuff I dare not even mention cause I might implode), I just want to remember that I am 21, and having a damn good year. I'm heading stong in a direction that I'm happy with (i'm not quite sure where that is, but it might be toward Chicago at this point) and life is good.
School is good- and fastly approaching and end.
Health is improving. Its slow, but its getting there, there WILL be a time when I am completly happy with my body, and that time is closer than ever.
My family is amazing, I really am a very luck person. And those friends that I am lucky enough to be regularly surrounded by deserve more appreciation than I'm afraid I could ever show them.
Chris is still making me smile, and as long as that continues, there's really no room for whining. He is, however, leaving for a month on friday, so yeah, it'll be weird not to hear from him for a while...we'll see.
Hopefully i've said enough in here to ease my semi-hyper emotionally charged day. Sometimes, I need a reminder thats its all gonna be alright. I think I got that today.
Bob Roberts, who is sadly the closest thing to a father figure that I have at the moment said to me today, "You're most likely gonna get hurt, cause that's what happens. You can't go thrugh life defensively worried about getting hurt, or you'll miss out on a lot."
I think he's right. Or, at least on the right track.
I know I haven't updated this thing in forever, which sucks for the sake of my records cause there's lots going on lately that i'm sure years down the line I would appreciate remembering. So for memories sake- I should remember, years from now, that I've been pretty damn happy lately. The usual stuggles of everyday life are still intact, of course, but I really don't have much to whine about. And if sometime down the line I do get hurt, cause in a way its inevitable (its either getting hurt, or other scary long term stuff I dare not even mention cause I might implode), I just want to remember that I am 21, and having a damn good year. I'm heading stong in a direction that I'm happy with (i'm not quite sure where that is, but it might be toward Chicago at this point) and life is good.
School is good- and fastly approaching and end.
Health is improving. Its slow, but its getting there, there WILL be a time when I am completly happy with my body, and that time is closer than ever.
My family is amazing, I really am a very luck person. And those friends that I am lucky enough to be regularly surrounded by deserve more appreciation than I'm afraid I could ever show them.
Chris is still making me smile, and as long as that continues, there's really no room for whining. He is, however, leaving for a month on friday, so yeah, it'll be weird not to hear from him for a while...we'll see.
Hopefully i've said enough in here to ease my semi-hyper emotionally charged day. Sometimes, I need a reminder thats its all gonna be alright. I think I got that today.