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i'm generally not a worrier but there are exceptions to every rule. i know that at this point it is not logical and that all the grief i am putting myself through will get me nowhere. knowing and feeling are two different things. hopefully relief will come and this knot will leave my stomach. if not, i'm not sure what i'll do. i must channel my feminine strength, keep my chin up, and do the things i need to do. even at worst this won't kill me.. i'll cling to that.