all is normal...
have had your mother tell you that she couldnt stand to be around you because you made her miserable and pissed her off? does your mother hate you only becausee you hated her first? and then ahs she stormed off in her car only to leave you with your grandmother who tries to use her psychology shit on you? and your gamndmother then asks you if you care that you are causing people so much pain, and that what you are doing is a sin. and then you reply that god ahs done nothing for you and he can just go away (she odesnt know im pagan not catholic) and then she tells you you need help and a lot of therapy? then she leaves to go find your mother and stop at mcdonalds? well that happened to me last night, i hate it here soooo much i cant wait until i graduate from high schol, im moving out to california and never coming back.i dont see why my mother cant just go live with her boyfriend and leave me the fuck alone, maybe if she was with him we would both be a little less miserable.... i can tell you now that thorugh all the moments like last night's, if i had had a knife, wahts is left of my heart would hva been on the floor, then i would take a picture and send it to people who i think might even care a little that my soul has departed. but im just awaiting the day i can leave and start over that is all that is keeping me alive.