2005, not as good as I was hoping...
The hurt and confusion are just now starting to go away. I am getting my feet back under me again, which is a nice feeling. I have a feeling it is going to be a dark year for me. I feel confident in my resolve in dealing with whatever life can/will throw at me now. I am worried I may lose 1 or even 2 of my Grandpa's. My Dog Max, who I have had since I was 9 isn't doing so well either. I sense alot of death on the horizon for my family. I suppose I just have to do what I can and make the most out of it. I have been excercising nightly, just some basics to hopefully tone down some of the unwanted side-effects of too much partying in the past X years. Eating healthier and drinking water are also things I am attempting to do. I am cutting down big-time on alcohol as well. The only thing I haven't put alot of effort into is cutting back on the ganja, but all in good time. I really hope work picks up for me. It's a great way to keep my mind off things as well as help me accomplish the goals I have been setting for myself. I am going to go to my/a bank sometime in the near future and see what sort of mortgage options I can qualify for. I think I would feel very fulfilled if I owned a house of my own before I hit 25, I would just need to find a few reliable roomies to help me pay for the mortgage. That shouldn't be too hard considering for half the year they would have the run of the place, me being in camp and all. In the meantime I guess I should just keep busy and work on making me a better person. I suppose I never really made a good honest attempt at doing much with myself (Aside from work) since I have been able to get over Vicki. Not much else to get out right now I guess, perhaps I will write some more later on. I appreciate all my friends and family who are helping me get through some rough times.