the boys of summer
so now that mirotic has been released it seems like every thing's moving slowly. LOL i swear there were updates every hour last night after the release. saw that they got number 1 on cyworld. good job boys! whoot!
anyways i'm going to leave for irvine tomorrow. .... well later this morning to be exact. until yesterday in the car when i was coming back from sf i thought nothing of it. we went to the zoo. TIGERS FRIGGEN ROCK! YEA! TIGERS! lions were cool too. rest of the animals were kinda just ehh.... felt sorry for them.
so we were coming back from sf. phuong and i were so tired we couldn't keep our eyes open. when all of a sudden it hit me. by tomorrow i'd be in irvine.
when you think oh i'm going to leave at 8 and move in at 5 you're just stating some facts. when you say i'm going to be in irvine tomorrow. that's totally different.
funny how that part never changes. even if the tears don't come anymore. even if the anxiety isn't there. even if you don't feel like the world's going to end........ the one thing that never changes is the shock that tomorrow you will be a different person.
today you're anna the kid. not a care in the world. every thing's taken care of. no matter what shit you find yourself in there will always be someone there to bail you out. more than someone. a group a crowd. that will come to your aid.
tomorrow you're on your own again. and all of a sudden the reigns are released. but unlike the anna you were. you are no longer a child.
funny how you can change from one person to another in the span of a day.
things have changed a lot within a year. i didn't notice how much until vivian left my house. last year there had a grand farewell. she came over early in the morning with ngan with phuong. we took pictures. there were presents. tears... this year there was a hug.
maybe you just get used to goodbyes after a while.
or maybe the goodbye marks the end. maybe all the hellos that come afterward mean nothing. nothing because you've already said farewell.
anyways i'm going to leave for irvine tomorrow. .... well later this morning to be exact. until yesterday in the car when i was coming back from sf i thought nothing of it. we went to the zoo. TIGERS FRIGGEN ROCK! YEA! TIGERS! lions were cool too. rest of the animals were kinda just ehh.... felt sorry for them.
so we were coming back from sf. phuong and i were so tired we couldn't keep our eyes open. when all of a sudden it hit me. by tomorrow i'd be in irvine.
when you think oh i'm going to leave at 8 and move in at 5 you're just stating some facts. when you say i'm going to be in irvine tomorrow. that's totally different.
funny how that part never changes. even if the tears don't come anymore. even if the anxiety isn't there. even if you don't feel like the world's going to end........ the one thing that never changes is the shock that tomorrow you will be a different person.
today you're anna the kid. not a care in the world. every thing's taken care of. no matter what shit you find yourself in there will always be someone there to bail you out. more than someone. a group a crowd. that will come to your aid.
tomorrow you're on your own again. and all of a sudden the reigns are released. but unlike the anna you were. you are no longer a child.
funny how you can change from one person to another in the span of a day.
things have changed a lot within a year. i didn't notice how much until vivian left my house. last year there had a grand farewell. she came over early in the morning with ngan with phuong. we took pictures. there were presents. tears... this year there was a hug.
maybe you just get used to goodbyes after a while.
or maybe the goodbye marks the end. maybe all the hellos that come afterward mean nothing. nothing because you've already said farewell.