terms arent only for school.

[scandy_kissess]

I came to terms with myself and realized alot about others. I am new now and today is the start of my newself that im revamping. Im tired of all the feelings that are negative. I havent slept good in three years, ive been sick, i have other problems and people are just adding to much stress to my life. I wish some people would just try and understand me for once, not jump down my throat. Id like to be able to explain myself.And im going to starting today. Im going to be me, be myself and do my thing. And i realised last night if people dont like me for who i am, then thats to bad for them. All my life i cared wayyyy to much. Even about the little things, its time to let go and just be who i am. Its so hard letting go of alot of my child self, and the ways I am. I mean dont get me wrong Im still me, and I still do the things that i do, but from now on im gonna do the things i never did and should have...

I think it just took so long because i was afraid of how things were or would end up, and being the way i was was the only thing i knew. Its hard, yes it is, but i can do it. I think ill be alright.I did alot of things wrong myself, and gave alot of people the wrong idea about things without realizing it, and it sucks and im sorry im just stupid i just didnt see it that way at the time, im very confused and just trying to figure out who i am, i just need my space and time and distance.

I really want the best foreveryone, and last night i realised that i should probably start caring about myself a little, at least for now.