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This is my new attempt to actually try and keep this journal updated. When I was at Brandon's house, his cousin Andrea told me that she had read my livejournal before (via Emily's) and Val told me she'd like to read it as well. I suddenly realized how awful I must seem if people were to only know be through my livejournal or used this journal to keep themselves updated on me. I would say that 95% of these journal entries are posted after a night of partying, when I feel as though I actually have something interesting/hilarious to share with others. But the purpose of this journal is for my own reflection as well as to keep others informed about my mundane life (why they would want to know is beyond me). Ok, so yeah, I'm going to try to update this more often. Although this could prove to be difficult since I'm moving out of here in 5 days and leaving my computer here for the summer. I think I will be able to use Laurel's computer, and I might buy a laptop with my income tax return - so you never know.
So today I woke up and puttered around on the Internerd for awhile. Then I remembered how nice yesterday was and assumed today would be the same. So I got myself together, threw on some gym shorts and set out for a bike ride. Too bad in poured rain the entire time. That was alright though, so being inside felt good and I have to get used to riding my bike more. I cruised around the neighbourhood for awhile, avoiding all main streets. This probably isn't going to help me get over my fear of riding my bike down Molson Park Drive to get to work. The rest of my day was spent catching up on some readings for my final exam tomorrow in women and representation. Am I ever glad that class was over. I came really, really close to dropping it at the beginning of the year after the prof. spent 4 3hr classes subjecting me to religious studies. I stuck with it because it's a required course for a minor in women's studies, but considering I've decided against doing a minor, it really wouldn't have mattered. I have no idea what kind of mark I have in that class, since we haven't received our final papers back (the one I handed in 7 hours after I realized it was actually due). I have this awful feeling I'm going to miss the honour roll this semester. Not only that, but I'm probably going to miss it by something like .6% I basically have myself convinced that if I want to get into grad school, I have to have an A average. And, if I don't get into grad school - I will likely shoot myself. I won't find out if I get into grad school until next year at this time, and I'm already stressed out
I've been attempting to pack, but my motivation is low. I actually don't have much other than clothes to pack, since I'm leaving everything else here for the summer. So the move actually involves more cleaning, so I don't have bugs when I come back with four inches of dust everywhere. I guess I feel like if I don't do anything, I am some how prolonging the inevitable move. I am excited to be able to hang out with Kris on a more regular basis, and see some other people like Lisa Smallwood and Erik, and Kate, and Bri... But it sucks that Dennis is leaving, and I have this job that I'm not totally into. The job is basically the same as what I did at Horseshoe, with less responsibility. However, for the first time in years I have someone else making my schedule and I have a feeling it's not going to work out in my favour. I called today and was told that some other girl is getting the bulk of the morning shift, which makes me the one hanging around at night, not hanging out with Kris. The whole point of me moving back to Barrie this summer is to hang out with Kris and my friends, but if I'm working every night, it's not going to happen. I applied for a research assistant position and I'm kind of hoping something comes through with that. My mom offered me a job for more money than I would make at the golf course, except I'd have to work every weekend and would have to drive there. I'm not sure what it's going to be like living with Laurel and Steve either. It already sucks that I'm going to be paying an arm and a leg for a tiny room with none of my stuff, but I might feel like the third wheel. I half think I should have just moved to my parents or took up the offer to live in Kris's spare bedroom. I just don't see a whole lot to look forward to this summer. With the exception of the return of Emily! But that isn't until August, which could be a wait of 3 miserable months. I guess I've been spoiled this year as far as not working and living on my own.
Sometimes I can just babble forever.
The rest of my day didn't really consist of much. I watched the season 2 premiere of Laguana Beach and read more for my exam. I'm sort of bummed out right now. I'm not really looking forward to a weekend of studying, and I have so much Anthropology reading, there is no hope for anything else. I guess I should just enjoy the last few days that I have here instead of stressing about the summer....
So today I woke up and puttered around on the Internerd for awhile. Then I remembered how nice yesterday was and assumed today would be the same. So I got myself together, threw on some gym shorts and set out for a bike ride. Too bad in poured rain the entire time. That was alright though, so being inside felt good and I have to get used to riding my bike more. I cruised around the neighbourhood for awhile, avoiding all main streets. This probably isn't going to help me get over my fear of riding my bike down Molson Park Drive to get to work. The rest of my day was spent catching up on some readings for my final exam tomorrow in women and representation. Am I ever glad that class was over. I came really, really close to dropping it at the beginning of the year after the prof. spent 4 3hr classes subjecting me to religious studies. I stuck with it because it's a required course for a minor in women's studies, but considering I've decided against doing a minor, it really wouldn't have mattered. I have no idea what kind of mark I have in that class, since we haven't received our final papers back (the one I handed in 7 hours after I realized it was actually due). I have this awful feeling I'm going to miss the honour roll this semester. Not only that, but I'm probably going to miss it by something like .6% I basically have myself convinced that if I want to get into grad school, I have to have an A average. And, if I don't get into grad school - I will likely shoot myself. I won't find out if I get into grad school until next year at this time, and I'm already stressed out
I've been attempting to pack, but my motivation is low. I actually don't have much other than clothes to pack, since I'm leaving everything else here for the summer. So the move actually involves more cleaning, so I don't have bugs when I come back with four inches of dust everywhere. I guess I feel like if I don't do anything, I am some how prolonging the inevitable move. I am excited to be able to hang out with Kris on a more regular basis, and see some other people like Lisa Smallwood and Erik, and Kate, and Bri... But it sucks that Dennis is leaving, and I have this job that I'm not totally into. The job is basically the same as what I did at Horseshoe, with less responsibility. However, for the first time in years I have someone else making my schedule and I have a feeling it's not going to work out in my favour. I called today and was told that some other girl is getting the bulk of the morning shift, which makes me the one hanging around at night, not hanging out with Kris. The whole point of me moving back to Barrie this summer is to hang out with Kris and my friends, but if I'm working every night, it's not going to happen. I applied for a research assistant position and I'm kind of hoping something comes through with that. My mom offered me a job for more money than I would make at the golf course, except I'd have to work every weekend and would have to drive there. I'm not sure what it's going to be like living with Laurel and Steve either. It already sucks that I'm going to be paying an arm and a leg for a tiny room with none of my stuff, but I might feel like the third wheel. I half think I should have just moved to my parents or took up the offer to live in Kris's spare bedroom. I just don't see a whole lot to look forward to this summer. With the exception of the return of Emily! But that isn't until August, which could be a wait of 3 miserable months. I guess I've been spoiled this year as far as not working and living on my own.
Sometimes I can just babble forever.
The rest of my day didn't really consist of much. I watched the season 2 premiere of Laguana Beach and read more for my exam. I'm sort of bummed out right now. I'm not really looking forward to a weekend of studying, and I have so much Anthropology reading, there is no hope for anything else. I guess I should just enjoy the last few days that I have here instead of stressing about the summer....