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So I got pregnant, then yesterday morning woke up in a puddle of blood.
Went to the doctors, said I had a misscarriage.
Sent me to the hospital who checked me out and said I could still be pregnant if it was just a threat misscarry.
After all Ive been through I think I want to keep the baby.
I think its also nearing the end of me and Phil for good. It was a year and a month on the 12th March.
And I also realised last night that I'm a very jealous & uptight person. Its getting out of hand but I didnt realise till now, like for example, I'm jealous of people who are close to their family or can talk to their family and their family looks after them. Mine never did that. I'm jealous of people who have loads of good stuff, but I think thats just normal. I'm jealous of people who have loads of friends because I'm an unstable person and I find it hard talking around new people, I'm too shy and pretend to be someone I'm not all the time. I want to have a sense of humour and for people to like being around me.
The jealous gets in the way of things and makes me fall out with the people Im closest to.
Went to the doctors, said I had a misscarriage.
Sent me to the hospital who checked me out and said I could still be pregnant if it was just a threat misscarry.
After all Ive been through I think I want to keep the baby.
I think its also nearing the end of me and Phil for good. It was a year and a month on the 12th March.
And I also realised last night that I'm a very jealous & uptight person. Its getting out of hand but I didnt realise till now, like for example, I'm jealous of people who are close to their family or can talk to their family and their family looks after them. Mine never did that. I'm jealous of people who have loads of good stuff, but I think thats just normal. I'm jealous of people who have loads of friends because I'm an unstable person and I find it hard talking around new people, I'm too shy and pretend to be someone I'm not all the time. I want to have a sense of humour and for people to like being around me.
The jealous gets in the way of things and makes me fall out with the people Im closest to.