My Sideways World
It has been almost 50 days since i last posted here. that's a long time.
Things are so strange here. I am now a Travel Agent, yet I am doing the same old stuff at the office. I go to Travel Agent Class on Monday, but I don't even have a schedule... They know that the first "class" (does that mean day of class or week of class, or a two week class?) is going to be in Costa Mesa in the day time.
I'm kinda feeling like I have very little control over my life right this minute. I can't make them give me work, I can't make them tell me what the next two months of my life are going to look like... I can't make my cat stay in the house at night... I can't control if Van's play is going to be accepted by the actor's alliance festival... I can't control when Shawn has time to talk to me...
I can control my own actions and behaviors (mostly) so I am trying to be ok with all of these things. I am doing my best to go with the flow. to let things happen the way they are meant to happen.
BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE NEXT TWO MONTHS OF MY LIFE ARE GOING TO LOOK LIKE!I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM GOING TO BE SLEEPING, LET ALONE WHEN I AM GOING TO GET TO SEE THE LOVELY BOY!
What if my cat forgets me, or decides to hate me because i've been away so long? What if EVERYONE forgets me?
wow. Hello, insecurities.
the phone upstairs is ringing. Who is calling my Aunt and Uncle at 10:32pm? hu.
Anyway... Good News:
a) Shawn called me!
b) We set up plans for me to see his show
c) said plans require my sleeping over at his
d) the next night I will have a lovely hotel room (somewhere in the vicinity) with a King Bed!
e) I get paid (alot more) for this training, and any food that I pay for, as well as milage
f) plenty of time to work on choreography for upcoming weekend's rehearsals for Oliver.
g) There will be a week when I am up at training (Hopefully) where Shawn doesn't have rehearsals every night. this = nookie time.
h) I will get bonus $ in March = airplane ticket to Puerto Vallarta!
i) I get a week off of class (even if we are in the middle of stuff) to go to PV on Vay-kay
j) Becka will come to visit me! (I hope!) YAY!!
k) (____________________) Fill in the blank!
Things are so strange here. I am now a Travel Agent, yet I am doing the same old stuff at the office. I go to Travel Agent Class on Monday, but I don't even have a schedule... They know that the first "class" (does that mean day of class or week of class, or a two week class?) is going to be in Costa Mesa in the day time.
I'm kinda feeling like I have very little control over my life right this minute. I can't make them give me work, I can't make them tell me what the next two months of my life are going to look like... I can't make my cat stay in the house at night... I can't control if Van's play is going to be accepted by the actor's alliance festival... I can't control when Shawn has time to talk to me...
I can control my own actions and behaviors (mostly) so I am trying to be ok with all of these things. I am doing my best to go with the flow. to let things happen the way they are meant to happen.
BUT I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE NEXT TWO MONTHS OF MY LIFE ARE GOING TO LOOK LIKE!I DON'T KNOW WHERE I AM GOING TO BE SLEEPING, LET ALONE WHEN I AM GOING TO GET TO SEE THE LOVELY BOY!
What if my cat forgets me, or decides to hate me because i've been away so long? What if EVERYONE forgets me?
wow. Hello, insecurities.
the phone upstairs is ringing. Who is calling my Aunt and Uncle at 10:32pm? hu.
Anyway... Good News:
a) Shawn called me!
b) We set up plans for me to see his show
c) said plans require my sleeping over at his
d) the next night I will have a lovely hotel room (somewhere in the vicinity) with a King Bed!
e) I get paid (alot more) for this training, and any food that I pay for, as well as milage
f) plenty of time to work on choreography for upcoming weekend's rehearsals for Oliver.
g) There will be a week when I am up at training (Hopefully) where Shawn doesn't have rehearsals every night. this = nookie time.
h) I will get bonus $ in March = airplane ticket to Puerto Vallarta!
i) I get a week off of class (even if we are in the middle of stuff) to go to PV on Vay-kay
j) Becka will come to visit me! (I hope!) YAY!!
k) (____________________) Fill in the blank!