Morior cum avis...

[scaetun]

Today was a day of which none of my generation has ever seen. Terrorists have involved themselves within the united states before, but never on such a broad scale. Today the World Trade Center in NYC was attacked. The attack was constructed in a maner where a plane crashed into one of the two towers that make up the Center. Fifteen minutes later, came another plane that made it's mark on the SECOND building. This was probably done to make sure cameras were "watching" the attack as it happened... not due to offset timing. This I had heard in my Computer Repair class early in the morning. It did not effect me much since the WTC had been through many hostile situations. Then I learned the Trade Center was totaly destroyed... and that the Pentagon... the HQ for US Defense for God's sake was "kamakazied" as well! This began to make me nervous, and provoked thoughts that this nation may soon be invovled with War. I, as it would figure, will be turning the age of 18 in December. Upon that age I can be drafted to fight in a war if needed. This is not something I'm looking forward to in the near future. There was a fourth plane. (All of these planes were stolen by the way from comercial airlines) This fourth plane was on a flight to Pittsburg, PA where I'm guessing another target site was. Unfortunately, I realized as they found the forth plane that this would be a day in my future child's history book. I don't like Bush... If they had to kill anyone I wish they ran into Airforce one instead of the World Trade Center. Bush gave a statement noting how they would "hunt and punish those responsible." For half the day today in school I was watching CNN. During lunch... I realized how distant we here in Westerly... and probably in other places... are from the reality going on. NEVER in our generation have we been on the edge of declaring war. Now, time has changed... and the flow of this stream is rough. After realizing it was in NYC I relized some of my NY friends might have been in the trade center. I'm still nervous about the whole situation, and what it might end up as. After visual confirmation on CNN of the second plane's explosion and disintigration it provoked many ideas. I have friends across the northeast. If something were to happen to any of them, especially afew of them, I am unsure of how I would be as a person after that. I just hope that everyone can get through this together... but more importantly on their own. The only one that can regulate how you act is you. Nobody can tell you what to do.... You choose what actions to take. For anyone that knows me, and is reading this. I wish you the best, and might you be strong. I realized at lunch today, as people stared at the monitor eating pizza... that there were people trapped under rubble... probably stomach acid was leaking from them, or some other painful injury that might lead to death... and people here were eating pizza while watching... some laughing. It's an odd paradox... how some can laugh while others cry. How some can paint something as "terrorist" as others call it heroism. (Thats in the sense of nation to nation... Russian spys are good in Russia, but bad in US. US spies are bad in Russia, but good in US.) All I know is that I have to keep a clear head, and help others do the same. What warlike conditions await us are yet to be seen, but I await them in silence until the red day comes. Thank you, and be well.

-Scotty J-