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[Private Ramblings: Somewhat hackable as Peter is rubbish with tech]
I can't do anything. I can't die, I won't let myself die! But I can't do anything...I can't fight, no magic, nothing...potions are nothing without magic, even if I could find real ingredients...that was the closest thing I had to a talent, and even Snape was better than me.
Remus would be in the library right now. Researching, studying, anything he can. But of course, werewolves wouldn't scare him, monsters are safe from monsters.
James...James would have taken over by now. Not on purpose, at least not that he showed, but people would have turned to him, they always turned to him, and he would've lead them all. And he'd have enjoyed it, I'm sure, he stopped showing it after awhile, but he always enjoyed that control, I'm sure...even over people like...
Sirius would have broken out. It doesn't matter that it's another world, even if he thought he died, he would have tried. Azkaban couldn't hold him, why should another universe? He could beat anything, except me. I beat him, in the end, now he's dead, and I'm alive, alive, I finally...
Why am I still comparing myself to dead men? Remus isn't dead, but he might as well be, he'll lose, they'll lose, they can't beat him.
I don't want to die. I don't want to die, I don't want to die! Please, pleaseplease, don't let me die, don't, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, really, I don't want to die, I can't die, I don't want to die!
[End Private]
I've been coughing up blood...that should probably be added to the list of symptoms if it hasn't yet.
The girl is sick. Linda. And the other girl is gone. Raz is sick as well. Are they the ones who will be saved? The lucky ones...or are they just not lucky enough?
I'm tired.
...I don't want to die. Even if I come back...no, that would be worse...the dead can't come back. Please don't let them come back...
I can't do anything. I can't die, I won't let myself die! But I can't do anything...I can't fight, no magic, nothing...potions are nothing without magic, even if I could find real ingredients...that was the closest thing I had to a talent, and even Snape was better than me.
Remus would be in the library right now. Researching, studying, anything he can. But of course, werewolves wouldn't scare him, monsters are safe from monsters.
James...James would have taken over by now. Not on purpose, at least not that he showed, but people would have turned to him, they always turned to him, and he would've lead them all. And he'd have enjoyed it, I'm sure, he stopped showing it after awhile, but he always enjoyed that control, I'm sure...even over people like...
Sirius would have broken out. It doesn't matter that it's another world, even if he thought he died, he would have tried. Azkaban couldn't hold him, why should another universe? He could beat anything, except me. I beat him, in the end, now he's dead, and I'm alive, alive, I finally...
Why am I still comparing myself to dead men? Remus isn't dead, but he might as well be, he'll lose, they'll lose, they can't beat him.
I don't want to die. I don't want to die, I don't want to die! Please, pleaseplease, don't let me die, don't, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, really, I don't want to die, I can't die, I don't want to die!
[End Private]
I've been coughing up blood...that should probably be added to the list of symptoms if it hasn't yet.
The girl is sick. Linda. And the other girl is gone. Raz is sick as well. Are they the ones who will be saved? The lucky ones...or are they just not lucky enough?
I'm tired.
...I don't want to die. Even if I come back...no, that would be worse...the dead can't come back. Please don't let them come back...