everything went from wrong to right*
i don't want to talk about the whole bill thing... because i don't know what to say anymore... i'm done crying and i'm done worrying and sometimes i feel like all it does is bring me down but that's only for like two seconds when i look at everything else... so i have no idea what i'm doing... great.
yesterday catie and i went to benet to practice soccer with matas, which basically consisted of us shooting for an hour than laying around... my favorite! then catie and i stopped by 7/11 and got slurpies. later we went to luigi's with her dad and brother which was fun! (awkward moments because catie wanted a salad and a second order... fatty... teeheee) then we went back to my house and matas came over. we made cookies in honor of molly... forgetting the eggs almost and not having enough brown sugar, but they still turned out awesome! then we watched the soccer dvd my mom made and matas played guitar for us... very talented boy. after matas left catie and i laid outside and looked at the stars and chatted... a lot of fun.
today, kind of slept in, drove catie home after our cookie breakfast, then cleaned my room like crazy. washed the car kind of... not that well. then matas picked me up and we went to tay's piano recital. got lost kind of and didn't know if she was there or not so we waited around until catie told us she was there. tay did AWESOME! then we stopped at ihop and i had some sweet sweet chocolate chip pancakes. they were delicious. then matas drove me home and i was online for the longest time. well i usually am... oh well.
tomorrow... err-- today... in like 8 hours anyway, i'm leaving for indiana with my mom. we are stopping at purdue to walk around, i don't think i would want to go there, but might as well check it out eh? then to my aunt's house where we will visit with her and my uncle, cousins, and my grandpa. should be fun (kind of) and sort of boring... but i'll bring my ipod and some reading material, and i'll run and go tanning. one plus will be that i'll be away from this crazy computerdora. i'll be back saturday sometime, my parents are going to a wedding and i'm going to syd's grad party for awhile then house to myself?? yeahh woot. and kel might come over. ::excitement:: so call my cell if you need me.
<3 l.e.a.v.e s.o.m.e l.o.v.e!
i know you have all read all of these... but here you go... because i love them... and they are never like my life = /
28 ways to make her smile
1. Tell her she's beautiful
2. Hold her hand...even if it's just for a second
3. Kiss her on the forehead
4. Call her 5 times a day, just to tell her you love her
5. Always tell her you love her at any and all times
6. When she's upset, hold her tight and tell her how much she means to you
7. Recognize the small things...they will mean the most
8. Find songs that tell her exactly how she makes you feel, and play them for her
9. Sing to her...no matter how horrible your voice is
10. Pick her over all the other girls you hang out with
11. Write her notes (she loves them)
12. Introduce her to family and friends as your GIRLFRIEND
13. Play with her hair
14. Pick her up, tickle her and play-wrestler with her
15. Take her to the park and push her on the swings
16. Tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes
17. Throw rocks at her window in the middle of the night just because you miss her
18. Let her fall asleep in your arms
19. Carve both your names into a tree with a heart around it
20. If she is mad at you, kiss her
21. Give her piggy back rides
22. Bring her flowers just because you know she'll love them
23. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone
24. Look into her eyes and SMILE
25. Let her take as many pictures of you as she wants
26. Slow dance with her even if there isn't any music playing
27. Kiss her in the rain
28. If you're in love with her, tell her
As soon as you get online, whose
name do u look for first? when a
slow song comes on the radio..
whose face comes to your mind
first? when you hear your phone
ringing.. who do u hope it is calling?
whose name makes your stomach
drop when u hear it? you know...
I want a boy that will stay with me for always.
He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt.
He'll.call.me.at.3am.and.ask.me.what.i'm.doing.
He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and the needed to hear my voice.
He can't walk next to me without holding my hand.
And he won't get embarrassed to tell me he misses me in front of his friends.
When I cry, he'll tell me I'm beautiful and he'll kiss every tear.
He'll leave me a voicemail of him singing a song to me.
He'll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me.
All his friends will know we're meant to be together because he'll talk about me to them.
He'll give me a blanket when I fall asleep.
He'll always be asking if I need anything, or if I wanna go home (which I never do because I love being with him).
He'll love everything about me and tell me that I'm perfect.
We'll always end up laughing about silly fights.
We won't get mad for making fun of each other because we crack up at every bit of it.
I'll get butterflies like crazy inside, Every time he kisses me.
He'll be interested in everything I say, and he always cares about it.
Every time I even hear his name, it'll take my breath away.
And when I hear him speak, I'll fall in love all over again.
He'll pay for me all the time even though I never want him to but I can never win, But with him I could never lose either because everything about him is just so wonderful,
Perfect.
I'll be his everything...
And he'll be even more to me.
He'll care for me always.
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
life sometimes feels hopeless.
p.s. the devious mood is because i feel like being bad. like... SC bad... mmmm.