Buzzin'
Just another lonely.......without YOU!
So here it is... 1:30 in the fucking morning. I'm buzzin', my mind is spinning, I'm in a safe place right now.... all I can think about it how fucked I feel. So much has hit me this last week and I'm ready... officialy to stick a god damn barrel in my mouth and pull the fucking trigger! I have access to guns galore so maybe it's not such a far off thought. Maybe this is why I don't drink anymore. It gets me all depressed. haha. Oh well... I'm safe where I'm at for now. My brother and I went out for the evening and discussed all sorts of things. Although everything is looking better, things are still pretty shitty. Atleast I got my family and my girl... not to mention a couple of friends; one of which I was finally able to speak to for a little bit tonight. I miss that guy! Hopefully I'll be able thang out with him soon! Time for sleep... big day tomorrow. I'm looking forward to something at least.
So here it is... 1:30 in the fucking morning. I'm buzzin', my mind is spinning, I'm in a safe place right now.... all I can think about it how fucked I feel. So much has hit me this last week and I'm ready... officialy to stick a god damn barrel in my mouth and pull the fucking trigger! I have access to guns galore so maybe it's not such a far off thought. Maybe this is why I don't drink anymore. It gets me all depressed. haha. Oh well... I'm safe where I'm at for now. My brother and I went out for the evening and discussed all sorts of things. Although everything is looking better, things are still pretty shitty. Atleast I got my family and my girl... not to mention a couple of friends; one of which I was finally able to speak to for a little bit tonight. I miss that guy! Hopefully I'll be able thang out with him soon! Time for sleep... big day tomorrow. I'm looking forward to something at least.