17 more days...
Okay...so here I am and I've been counting down the days til I'm outa school and get to go home. I mean I totally HATE it here...the dorms that is...I actually PREFER to be in classes because at least that way I can be like involved in work and not notice people talkin about me...its kinda hard to ignore that when everyone is piled up in someone's room...cept you. Anywhos...so I'm really 'cited bout goin home...but now as FJ keeps announcing "Last time in room 100 with the whole school" "last...whatever"...I keep gettin all choked up! I mean like today I had Richard take me to Walmart cus I had to get some stuff then we went to eat cus we were both hungry and had nothing better to do...and while we were sitting there (CiCi's...YUMMY) I couldn't help but think about next year...Next year I won't have him around to mess with...or Jenn to cry on...and I mean I know for a fact I don't wanna come back and put myself thru another year of SHIT from some of the people here...but its like I just wish I could bring a few people home with me! LOL I know some of the ppl here think that Richard is a total JERK but he's one of my good friends...and I really am gonna miss him. And I mean comon Jenn is one of the best friends I've had in FOREVER!! its obvious that I'm gonna miss her...so theres 17 days of school (counting weekends & today) left...and I still haven't decided whether I'm gonna cry or dance when I leave this place...I mean there are so many people here that I can't wait to get away from...Mrs. G included!!! but there are a select few that I can't picture not seein everyday...its gonna be crazy! I just hope that before these 17days are up I can settle everything up here btw me and all the ppl I don't get along with or have issues with so I can leave on a good note...
Another thing! There are a few people here that I've had "mixed feelings" for...and its like I wanna tell them how I feel...but (esp since I plan on visiting next year) I think it'll juss make things real awkward...I mean one of those people isn't gonna be coming back next year either...and I doubt I'll see him again...plus its REAL obvious how I feel...the other person..I just want to talk to...to straighten things that never were straighten out...but considering I can't even like say hey to him without getting made fun of by his friends...I doubt that will happen...I just don't wanna leave SBP with a lot of "I wish I had done this" or "What if..."s ya know?
17days left...I wonder if I can fix it all?
Another thing! There are a few people here that I've had "mixed feelings" for...and its like I wanna tell them how I feel...but (esp since I plan on visiting next year) I think it'll juss make things real awkward...I mean one of those people isn't gonna be coming back next year either...and I doubt I'll see him again...plus its REAL obvious how I feel...the other person..I just want to talk to...to straighten things that never were straighten out...but considering I can't even like say hey to him without getting made fun of by his friends...I doubt that will happen...I just don't wanna leave SBP with a lot of "I wish I had done this" or "What if..."s ya know?
17days left...I wonder if I can fix it all?