Something really is wrong with me. And I don't know what it is.
It's not real. This just cannot be happening this soon. What happened??
Maybe these are my glory days, and I'm not even realizing it because they don't involve a ball.
I just don't know how to slow it down.
"I don't want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning."
Maybe these are my glory days, and I'm not even realizing it because they don't involve a ball.
I just don't know how to slow it down.
"I don't want to start thinking again. Not like I have this last week. I can't think again. Not ever again. I don't know if you've ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That's why I'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning."