My life should be a musical
I didn’t mind the subways being down yesterday. I like to walk and I’m not that far from where I work. I met G at my mom’s and we walked to work together from there. At one point we both start singing Bonny M and dancing around. We were laughing and just having a good time. Wouldn’t life just be better if every once in a while you could break into song expressing how you feel?
I’ve been having some serious emotional lows lately. It’s not like me to get depressed with any sort of frequency, but I guess the loneliness of being divorced is really starting to set in. I still do a fair amount of things with G, and his move date is getting closer-and-closer. I’ve been trying to stay busy, but that doesn’t help take my mind off of how lonely I’ve been feeling. The online dating thing seems much slower than last time. I’ve been on one date since I’ve been “back on the market” and I think that’s made me feel even worse.
I have been enjoying being single and have been getting out there and really doing things. Things I haven’t done in a long time, and things I’ve always wanted to get into, like mountain biking. I’ve noticed it’s been hard though to watch other couples be happy and all cutesy and making out. Something I’m a big fan of doing myself. I wouldn’t want anyone to stop being affectionate in front of me because I’m in this funk, but yeah, I’ve noticed it’s been a bit hard lately.
I seem to know that I’m going to have some rough times ahead. That crying is looking like it’s in my future. It’s one of those odd things, where I know logically I have to have bad times, and come out of them to have good ones again. It’s weird foreseeing something like that. Knowing it’s just what happens and people go through it. And get through it. I guess I was just hoping to happily avoid that? I will say that I woke up in an excellent mood, look super cute today and feel better than I have emotionally in the last week or so. Oh well. Tonight I go to look at snowboarding jackets!
I’ve been having some serious emotional lows lately. It’s not like me to get depressed with any sort of frequency, but I guess the loneliness of being divorced is really starting to set in. I still do a fair amount of things with G, and his move date is getting closer-and-closer. I’ve been trying to stay busy, but that doesn’t help take my mind off of how lonely I’ve been feeling. The online dating thing seems much slower than last time. I’ve been on one date since I’ve been “back on the market” and I think that’s made me feel even worse.
I have been enjoying being single and have been getting out there and really doing things. Things I haven’t done in a long time, and things I’ve always wanted to get into, like mountain biking. I’ve noticed it’s been hard though to watch other couples be happy and all cutesy and making out. Something I’m a big fan of doing myself. I wouldn’t want anyone to stop being affectionate in front of me because I’m in this funk, but yeah, I’ve noticed it’s been a bit hard lately.
I seem to know that I’m going to have some rough times ahead. That crying is looking like it’s in my future. It’s one of those odd things, where I know logically I have to have bad times, and come out of them to have good ones again. It’s weird foreseeing something like that. Knowing it’s just what happens and people go through it. And get through it. I guess I was just hoping to happily avoid that? I will say that I woke up in an excellent mood, look super cute today and feel better than I have emotionally in the last week or so. Oh well. Tonight I go to look at snowboarding jackets!