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well school is over.
finals were whatever.
i dont even care.
i cant even be happy.
i start school in a week and im dreading it.
im going to be going to school from 9:30-12:20 monday through friday and then working everyday for matthew plus i think my hours are going to increase for pacsun. im never gonna have shonna-fun-time and im never gonna get to see d because i have to wake up semi-early. whatever, i dont want to pre-suppose the future.
my birthday was amazing as always. i spent the first hours (12am-2am) with d. he gave me a volcom shirt and tank top and some cute velour volcom capris all wrapped in turquoise paper in turquoise boxes. made me happy. i came home and there was the coolest poster ever made by the coolest best friends ever. brandon remembered... that made me happy. it was good to hear from people. i got cute cards and gifts from friends. katie, me, carissa, and jessie got sandwiches and lots of candy and enjoyed a wonderful day boogie boarding at the beach. emily was there and its always nice to see her. we returned and hung out and then got ready for dinner. after giving d a guilt trip he finally decided to come. it was 6 girls- and him. (emily and my sister came). it was interesting but whatever. we came back after and drank and i got all horny and got all really drunk. fun times.
i really love my best friends more than anything.
my priorities might be mixed up- but i think this is the way they are supposed to be for me.
things have been getting really serious with d. its really hard because i want to stop being "can't commit" shonna and just be with him- but there are some reasons i just dont think it would last... and the truth of the matter is if its not gonna last- whats the point? but then i think... if we're just doing what we're doing and its not leading towards a relationship- then whats the point? you know? i really hate thinking about it... i just enjoy spending time with him. you're right katie- he makes me happy.
ive been so busy i hope i get a little relax time.
suzie is coming today and im excited.
im so glad its summer.
::summertime, and the living's easy::
finals were whatever.
i dont even care.
i cant even be happy.
i start school in a week and im dreading it.
im going to be going to school from 9:30-12:20 monday through friday and then working everyday for matthew plus i think my hours are going to increase for pacsun. im never gonna have shonna-fun-time and im never gonna get to see d because i have to wake up semi-early. whatever, i dont want to pre-suppose the future.
my birthday was amazing as always. i spent the first hours (12am-2am) with d. he gave me a volcom shirt and tank top and some cute velour volcom capris all wrapped in turquoise paper in turquoise boxes. made me happy. i came home and there was the coolest poster ever made by the coolest best friends ever. brandon remembered... that made me happy. it was good to hear from people. i got cute cards and gifts from friends. katie, me, carissa, and jessie got sandwiches and lots of candy and enjoyed a wonderful day boogie boarding at the beach. emily was there and its always nice to see her. we returned and hung out and then got ready for dinner. after giving d a guilt trip he finally decided to come. it was 6 girls- and him. (emily and my sister came). it was interesting but whatever. we came back after and drank and i got all horny and got all really drunk. fun times.
i really love my best friends more than anything.
my priorities might be mixed up- but i think this is the way they are supposed to be for me.
things have been getting really serious with d. its really hard because i want to stop being "can't commit" shonna and just be with him- but there are some reasons i just dont think it would last... and the truth of the matter is if its not gonna last- whats the point? but then i think... if we're just doing what we're doing and its not leading towards a relationship- then whats the point? you know? i really hate thinking about it... i just enjoy spending time with him. you're right katie- he makes me happy.
ive been so busy i hope i get a little relax time.
suzie is coming today and im excited.
im so glad its summer.
::summertime, and the living's easy::