2:32 AM and still awake
So right now I'm really tired and I can barely keep my eyes open. Well today has been all out nuts. Nick sent me a bunch of poems and shit in the mail and that is freaky. This guy is crazy about me but I'm totally not interested. I'm waiting for Justin to come home from Iraq. This guy seems to make me happy all the time. It's like when I'm with him I feel so protected and everything. I don't know if it will even work between us but I guess that we will see. My cousin Erin just had her baby 1 day ago and he is a cutie. She is really happy which is good to see and her and her boy toy are going to make really great parents. But otherwise things have been the same around here. Just a huge fight tho with Mark and his bull shit. WHOLE NEW STORY that I'm not going to waste my time on. He is just a fucking idiot!!! I'm sorry that I'm not going to ask you mom for permission to date you. WHEN YOUR 21 YEARS OLD NOW!!! What ever. But I finally stoped him one day to set up a time that him and I could talk and work things out to at least speaking terms. But like a typical Mark move he dosn't show. I've had it with stupid people in the town. I don't even talk to any of my old friend anymore. But I guess things have definatly changed. It just sucks that the guy that I want to be with and vise versa is in Iraq. It's hard to wake up everymorning to worry about weather or not I'll see his face on tv. Or to read about another death from the 127th infantry. I hold my breath every day. All I can do is pray and hope for the best but it's hard. I can see my self settleing down with this boy. Damn! Well enough with this I'm going to bed finally. I mean getting up with a crabby little man at 7 isn't fun when your tired yourself.