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NEWS FLASH TIME!
I am emotionally drained...
I am emotionally dead...
I am mentally hurt...
I am mentally gone...
I am physically bleeding...
I fucked up my first love life...
Did the same with the second on too...
I am losing all my friends...
Then my grandma dies...
The was the last piece of sanity I had...
Then my mom went and said my life wasn't important at all and that I was useless...
And that pushed me right off the edge...
I couldn't handle it any longer...
If my birth mother said it...
It had to be true...
I wanted out...
I cut...
I cut beyond my normal boundries...
And when i started cutting...
I started thinking...
What is love for...
And why the hell do we need it...
God isn't real...
We made him up....
He did NOT make us...
It is beyond all possibility that it is real...
We made him for insurance...
Just so we feel safe when we die...
For all we know we are going to sit in a pit of eternal darkness forever...
I bleed for awhile...
Seeing as I stop ahlfway through...
I was ok...
But...
I have questioned the loyalty of people lately...
Not just a few but all of them...
Lonliness comes at a price...
You lose your friends...
You lose your identity really...
But I never asked for it...
It just happened...
Amanda, the best friend I have right now, she's getting further from me...
Vikki, been getting further from me since the day we broke up, convinces herself she still loves me...
Heather, I have no clue as to what's going on, it's a confusing situation...
Fiona...
Tiffany...
Jenna...
Amber...
Just everyone...
You all know who you are...
They have become...
Distant...
I never asked for this lonliness...
It just happened...
Funny thing is...
I feel nothing...
It's as if my brain tells me it has always been this way...
And it's ok...
Please...
Find a way for me to get rid of this...
I know it may sound like I am drowning myself in my problems...
And your right...
Because what the hell else am I suppose to do...
I can't rid of them i have tryed...
Just i don't know what to do anymore...
Well...
I better wrap this up...
Bye..........................................
I am emotionally drained...
I am emotionally dead...
I am mentally hurt...
I am mentally gone...
I am physically bleeding...
I fucked up my first love life...
Did the same with the second on too...
I am losing all my friends...
Then my grandma dies...
The was the last piece of sanity I had...
Then my mom went and said my life wasn't important at all and that I was useless...
And that pushed me right off the edge...
I couldn't handle it any longer...
If my birth mother said it...
It had to be true...
I wanted out...
I cut...
I cut beyond my normal boundries...
And when i started cutting...
I started thinking...
What is love for...
And why the hell do we need it...
God isn't real...
We made him up....
He did NOT make us...
It is beyond all possibility that it is real...
We made him for insurance...
Just so we feel safe when we die...
For all we know we are going to sit in a pit of eternal darkness forever...
I bleed for awhile...
Seeing as I stop ahlfway through...
I was ok...
But...
I have questioned the loyalty of people lately...
Not just a few but all of them...
Lonliness comes at a price...
You lose your friends...
You lose your identity really...
But I never asked for it...
It just happened...
Amanda, the best friend I have right now, she's getting further from me...
Vikki, been getting further from me since the day we broke up, convinces herself she still loves me...
Heather, I have no clue as to what's going on, it's a confusing situation...
Fiona...
Tiffany...
Jenna...
Amber...
Just everyone...
You all know who you are...
They have become...
Distant...
I never asked for this lonliness...
It just happened...
Funny thing is...
I feel nothing...
It's as if my brain tells me it has always been this way...
And it's ok...
Please...
Find a way for me to get rid of this...
I know it may sound like I am drowning myself in my problems...
And your right...
Because what the hell else am I suppose to do...
I can't rid of them i have tryed...
Just i don't know what to do anymore...
Well...
I better wrap this up...
Bye..........................................