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I am just sitting here waiting for something to download. And I start to think about people. I'm not a good boyfriend. I'm not a good friend. I don't belong anywhere in society. There is like 5 people I can actually trust knowing they will not turn their backs upon me. There are many good people out there, but there is only 5 people I trust with my life. Elizabeth (as a matter of fact the whole Groulx family), Heather, Victoria, Tracey, and Amanda. I live a fake life. My whole life has been one big lie. I lie to people about my past (except a certain few), I make it seem happy and good. But it's a lie. Anyone who says they are my friends, dont know a thing about me. So how can they truely be my friends?
Well on lighter news, I am going to see Heather tomorrow. We are going to stay at her house watch a movie, you kno the usual. We always find a way to have fun. Like one time me, heather, her sisters and brother were all running around downstairs. They were trying to beat me up while her bro was helping me (muahaha boys won). Heather trys to think she is stronger than I but I have proved her one many occasions. Though she denies it. But it's ok I shall prove it again tomorrow.
In about two weeks I will go to Tracey's. That is if her parents see she is doing better in school so she can be ungrounded. It was fun when we were at her house. I met her friends and we watched a movie. I'm never sure what we are going to do whenever i go over there. we either change plans or something else happens not expected.
People say I give good advice. To this I do not know if it is true. I would like to think so but the fact is that more than half the stuff i have given advice about I have gone through. But the rest of the advice i give just comes to me. I do not know if it will help or make things worse. But here is a question: Why do people always ask me for advice and actually share most of their lives with me, even if i don't know them much? Another thing that bothers me is that most of the friends i have like hate some of my other friends so if i hang out with one person i cant hang out with the other. I think that was because i was friends with every social group in school and still am. At least i dont have enemies.
Mine and Heather's honeymoon is ruined because i cant get a ride to her house so we can go to detroit. Oh well.
For those people who do not kno my real side. Here is a taste of it. Imagine being good all day cleaning the house, knowing your step-dad will be home soon. He walks in the door, you rush into the room to say "hi" and show him how good you have been. Mind you you're only 9 years old. He grabs you by the throat and slams you up against the brick wall. Looked me straight in the eyes and told me to "shut the hell up". I was bleeding out my head. And that was just an easy day for me. Now I dont want your sympathy. I don't want your pity. I just want you to taste what I went through for ten years of my fucking life. I am going to let it all off my chest in a few days so stand by if you want to know more.
Matt
Well on lighter news, I am going to see Heather tomorrow. We are going to stay at her house watch a movie, you kno the usual. We always find a way to have fun. Like one time me, heather, her sisters and brother were all running around downstairs. They were trying to beat me up while her bro was helping me (muahaha boys won). Heather trys to think she is stronger than I but I have proved her one many occasions. Though she denies it. But it's ok I shall prove it again tomorrow.
In about two weeks I will go to Tracey's. That is if her parents see she is doing better in school so she can be ungrounded. It was fun when we were at her house. I met her friends and we watched a movie. I'm never sure what we are going to do whenever i go over there. we either change plans or something else happens not expected.
People say I give good advice. To this I do not know if it is true. I would like to think so but the fact is that more than half the stuff i have given advice about I have gone through. But the rest of the advice i give just comes to me. I do not know if it will help or make things worse. But here is a question: Why do people always ask me for advice and actually share most of their lives with me, even if i don't know them much? Another thing that bothers me is that most of the friends i have like hate some of my other friends so if i hang out with one person i cant hang out with the other. I think that was because i was friends with every social group in school and still am. At least i dont have enemies.
Mine and Heather's honeymoon is ruined because i cant get a ride to her house so we can go to detroit. Oh well.
For those people who do not kno my real side. Here is a taste of it. Imagine being good all day cleaning the house, knowing your step-dad will be home soon. He walks in the door, you rush into the room to say "hi" and show him how good you have been. Mind you you're only 9 years old. He grabs you by the throat and slams you up against the brick wall. Looked me straight in the eyes and told me to "shut the hell up". I was bleeding out my head. And that was just an easy day for me. Now I dont want your sympathy. I don't want your pity. I just want you to taste what I went through for ten years of my fucking life. I am going to let it all off my chest in a few days so stand by if you want to know more.
Matt