2 days ago
well this is what happened after my last entry.... i had a spaz case and got really depressed (which you all kno i am taking pills for now but i dont have the pills yet) and blacked out and found myself being yelled at by my friend and me walking into traffic straight towards a car... and he was crying... he is my lifeline right now... he has been the only one to actually get me out of a phase and stop cutting and doing stupid shit... if it werent for him i would have died the other night... thank god he lives with me now... i miss heather... i wish she would kno what she has done to me... but she never will... because it seems like she is advoiding me... well i am going to go before i get to pissed... goodnight all... i dont want to lose anymore of my friends because i have lost more than heather recently and i cryed all night... i take it rather hard so plz.... stay with me.... :(