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I feel like I am going insane.
I never feel happy anymore.
I always feel confused.
FOr no reason at all, I could cry at any moment of everyday.
These tears burning the backs of my eyes...and I don't know what they are for.
Mom's going to set me up to see a counselor.
Maybe he can tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
Why do I have such horrible insecurity issues and trust issues?
I don't understand it myself.
I'm always so afraid of losing people that I love.
I'm always scared that I'm not good enough, and that I'm going to push people away.
I just want to feel ok. I want to feel happy.
It feels like it's been so long since I have just felt at peace.
Everything feels like it is so up in the air right now, I just want it all to fall into place.
I want to know what will happen in long run...
am I making the right decisions in my life?
am I going to be happy in the end?
I guess only time will tell, huh?
I never feel happy anymore.
I always feel confused.
FOr no reason at all, I could cry at any moment of everyday.
These tears burning the backs of my eyes...and I don't know what they are for.
Mom's going to set me up to see a counselor.
Maybe he can tell me what the fuck is wrong with me.
Why do I have such horrible insecurity issues and trust issues?
I don't understand it myself.
I'm always so afraid of losing people that I love.
I'm always scared that I'm not good enough, and that I'm going to push people away.
I just want to feel ok. I want to feel happy.
It feels like it's been so long since I have just felt at peace.
Everything feels like it is so up in the air right now, I just want it all to fall into place.
I want to know what will happen in long run...
am I making the right decisions in my life?
am I going to be happy in the end?
I guess only time will tell, huh?